《 Non-vulgar murder (4). ”
“grandfather.”
“Yes?”
“This…”
Hwang Min-jae, who was getting ready for school, held out a box to his grandfather. Hwang Dae-sik was confused, but reluctantly opened the box when he saw his grandson’s face filled with anticipation.
“Put your shoes on.”
Hwang Min-jae was worried about his worn-out shoes. Even though he came to visit us early and the family grew, a sense of debt was settling in as he picked up waste paper without saying a word. So I bought Hwang Dae-sik’s sneakers with the money I saved from my part-time job.
‘Buy your own…’
How long has it been since I received a gift like this? Hwang Dae-sik, who was lazily touching the tips of his shoes, grumbled for no reason. The corners of his mouth trembled slightly.
“…Did you buy something like this?”
“It’s just annoying. “I’ll be back.”
Hwang Dae-sik caught his grandson.
“Wait a minute… put this on.”
“…I bought something like grandpa’s.”
What came out of the paper bag he held out was a long padding. Hwang Min-jae tried hard to suppress the corners of his mouth that were about to rise. The corner of my mouth suddenly twitched. They looked very similar to Joson, who was kind but held back his emotions.
“Winter is almost over.”
“You can wear it this winter and wear it next year as well. If you don’t need it, throw it away…”
“No, thank you.”
Hwang Min-jae, who hastily avoided Hwang Dae-sik’s hand trying to take it away again, ran wearing unseasonable padding. Even though I was running quite fast, the smile grew thicker on my face as if it wasn’t difficult. It was the first time my grandfather talked about the future.
“Why are you wearing that when it’s so hot…”
Hwang Dae-sik laughed.
As his grandson was getting closer, Hwang Dae-sik collapsed in unknown pain on the street.
Then, with the help of a passerby, I went to the hospital to get tested and when I went to hear the results, I received unexpected news.
“Cancer…?”
“Yes, I think you need to be hospitalized right away.”
Ignoring the doctor’s advice for treatment, Hwang Dae-sik left the hospital. Even if I was hospitalized, I didn’t have any money anyway. Because I was busy feeding myself, I didn’t have insurance, and even if I received support from the government, there were limits.
Hwang Dae-sik, who was walking aimlessly down the street, suddenly stopped in place.
It was something I had hoped for just a few months before my death. But when it came to it, I felt a bit sad.
‘Does life feel like a waste now?’
Then why is it different now? Because of my grandson, who lived with me for only a few months?
This led me to the conclusion that my son was not normal and that I had abandoned him, which made me feel disgusted with myself. I can hear my son’s final voice that has become quiet.
(Choke… Ah, father…)
“… When I get old, I have to die.”
It was a hassle to even think about it now. I thought that just disappearing like this would be a good choice for both the dead child and my grandson.
‘Why did I buy this…’
Only when he got home after buying it did Hwang Dae-sik realize that his thoughts were wrong and put it deep in the house.
But that situation didn’t last long. I found it while looking for my grandfather’s ID card to enter his family register.
‘We don’t need these things in our house…’
Even though it was a shabby neighborhood, it had some necessities. I already have a boiler, so why am I using lightning in the middle of summer? I don’t even have briquettes…. Then, what my friend Park Ji-woo said came to my mind like an afterimage.
(Hey, it wasn’t a double suicide, you idiot.)
(What?)
(It was an attempt to kill and commit suicide.)
(That’s not it… I think he regrets it a lot…)
He killed his grandfather. I remembered what happened when I first saw it. The string hanging from the ceiling, which I ignored because I was so happy to see my grandfather for the first time in my life, was never meant to fix things like a light fixture.
(If, as you said, your grandfather misses your father…)
(Then wouldn’t he try again to do what he couldn’t do then?) Even then, he
tried hard to refute that, but as soon as he saw the hidden lightning bullet, he started to build up all the time. Doubts crumble away.
“I’m here? sit down “I’ll cook you something.”
“What’s that?”
“…….”
Hwang Dae-sik paused when he saw the object in his grandson’s hand. I know I bought it wrong, but I have to return it tonight. I have to do it tomorrow… It was something I had been putting off thinking about.
And when he realized too late that it was a regret, a faint smile spread across Hwang Dae-sik’s lips. Hwang Min-jae, who looked like he had decided on something, shouted in urgency.
“What is this?”
“I thought you could scream.”
It was much more like a child. Rather than always watching myself and clinging to me asking me not to throw it away.
“Now… what is that…”
Yoo Yeon-seo reflected on the emotions brought on by Park Seung-hwan. The feeling I felt as a child when I didn’t yet know the identity of the culprit.
The ‘mother’ I couldn’t hold on to. I tried desperately, but it wasn’t enough to get her down again. But the opportunity came again. ‘Grandpa’ is a very affectionate person, so if I hold on desperately, he probably won’t give up on life for me.
“I bought it wrong… I was going to return it.”
“Really?”
“okay.”
I didn’t like the answer he gave while sighing as if he was tired. Suddenly, Hwang Min-jae, who was on his knees, crawled over and grabbed the end of Hwang Dae-sik’s pants. This was not an action directed by Director Kim. My body just moved on its own.
“No.”
“I will not.”
“Don’t go…”
Grabbing him like this wasn’t enough, so he hugged Hwang Dae-sik’s calf tightly. This foot should be firmly on the floor. Otherwise…
[Yeonseo.]
He looked up for a moment and then lowered his head. uh? Have you ever been this close to your mother? Yes, this has happened before.
The surrounding environment changes. It was not the shabby house in a small village that the assistant director found through a difficult field trip, but an annex to Chairman Yoo’s old-fashioned and spacious mansion.
[Mom……]
Why isn’t there an answer? It might be okay if I drop my mom off right now. He was so surprised that he crawled over and hugged Lee Hee-seo’s ankles.
[Mom… you can’t be there…]
He whined and raised his tiptoes. Ah, he is too short. He pulled a heavy chair nearby. I fell halfway due to lack of strength, but got up again and climbed onto the chair. I hugged my calf, but it wasn’t enough. If this continues, mom will die. So I have to keep holding on.
[Yeonseo!]
[Don’t come! Don’t look!]
No one should see this.
It feels strange. My calf, which should feel warm, feels like ice because I keep hugging it. Tears flowed from his eyes.
[Mom… don’t go…]
But who am I holding on to now? It was your grandfather, wasn’t it? Grandpa is outside. Oh yeah. It was my mom.
《Master.》
《The synchronization rate exceeded 60%, so it seems like memories that I cannot control are flowing out.》 《I
am trying to control the memories.》
[Madam, I was holding it… Mom, you are strange. ……]
“Don’t leave me behind…” Hwang Dae-
sik, or rather Park Seung-hwan, was moved to tears by that earnest look. The situation is so precarious that Yoo Yeon-seo cannot distinguish between the past and the present, but ironically, it has the effect of heightening the emotions of the other actor.
Hwang Dae-sik moistened his dry lips with his tongue.
“……okay. sorry.”
“Don’t go… don’t die…”
“But what the heck… you won’t live long anyway.”
Hiding it like this would be a disservice to my grandson. Hwang Dae-sik calmly said that he was suffering from terminal cancer. He confesses that treatment costs a lot of money and is useless. Meanwhile, Hwang Min-jae sobbed, telling him not to keep going and not to die.
“Cut! great!”
Director Kim Jae-ho, who sensed the birth of a famous scene, shouted loudly with joy. Then, one of the staff members who was watching with bated breath clapped their hands and wiped away tears with their sleeves.
“it was good.”
He, who returned from Hwang Dae-sik to Park Seung-hwan, extended his hand towards Yoo Yeon-seo, who was lying on the floor. Normally, Yoo Yeon-seo would have jumped up and held his hand, but she remained silent.
“Is it Yeonseo?”
“Ugh…”
“It looks like he was too immersed in it. Yeonseo. “Look at you bro.”
Park Seung-hwan was embarrassed and got down on one knee and grabbed his shoulder.
“……mom.”
“…Yeonseo.”
“Don’t go…”
Park Seung-hwan urgently shook his shoulder, looking at his lifeless eyes and miserable expression. Some staff members were buzzing.
“oh my god?”
“Where is Manager Yeonseo….”
“I’ll pass by.”
Tae-gyeom Lee and Seung-hyeon Lim pushed them aside and entered the camera. Following director Kim Jae-ho’s instructions, the camera director belatedly turned the camera sideways.
[What if… if something seems strange while I’m acting, please wake me up.]
[Huh, how?]
[You can figure it out. Lim Seung-hyun too.]
Lee Tae-gyeom and Lim Seung-hyun, who sat on the floor with Park Seung-hwan behind him, gently shook him. I thought I knew why he said that.
“Hey Yeonseo.”
“young master.”
Lim Seung-hyun slapped Yoo Yeon-seo’s cheek without causing any pain. Still, I kept calling my mom and muttering to her not to go.
‘What do we do?’
No matter what the trustworthy Lim Seung-hyun tried, it was not enough. Lee Tae-gyeom chewed his fingernails and thought for a moment.
Now that I think about it… there was an incident where Yu Yeon-seo, who was always good-looking, was dealt a blow. It was my first time seeing him so unreasonable and indignant.
Lee Tae-gyeom whispered softly in Yoo Yeon-seo’s ear.
“Yoo Yeon-seo is a bastard. “You got slapped with a game by your manager, right?”
“Lee Tae-gyeom, what does that mean in the current situation….”
“Wait and see, bro. Hey, I have to go to the revenge war. “Even if you do that, you’ll be punished by me again.”
Lim Seung-hyun looked at Tae-gyeom Lee in bewilderment as he said something out of the blue. But the effect was amazing. Yoo Yeon-seo, whose eyes returned to focus, saw Tae-gyeom Lee and gritted his teeth.
“This bastard…”
“Are you awake?”
Thanks to you, I woke up. But I feel dirty. I don’t know if this is because of past memories or Lee Tae-gyeom’s angry words. Something hot was flowing out of my nose.
‘It’s ruined.’
You shouldn’t collapse here.
“uh? “Uh huh?!”
“young master!”
“Yeonseo!”
***
Was I this weak? This was Yeon-seo’s first thought when she woke up. As he blinks and stares at the ceiling, the muttering becomes louder.
“…How long has it been?”
“5 hours.”
“It’s pretty early today. I thought it would take a few days.”
“…Hey, that’s what you’re saying.”
Ah, it was a lodging near the filming location. Luckily they didn’t take him to the hospital. Lim Seung-hyun probably handled it well. Yeon-seo woke up with a groan. It’s my mind that hurts, but I don’t know why I’m having muscle pain.
“Yeonseo.”
“Are you there?”
He scratched his cheek as he saw Park Seung-hwan and coach Kim Jae-ho approaching him.
“I guess I thought wrong.”
“What?”
“I wasn’t saying that to you…”
Park Seung-hwan’s expression didn’t look good. Yeon-seo laughed for no reason. This was just a chronic problem he had.
“It’s not because of you.”
“No, it doesn’t matter.”
“How did the filming go?”
Director Kim Jae-ho smiled as if to tell me not to worry.
“I stopped it for now.”
“It’s because of me… Let’s start again tomorrow, right?”
“It’s okay because production costs are high anyway.”
And the money came from Yoo Yeon-seo’s wallet. However, paying money is not everything. Due to the sudden change in schedule, the directors of the actors’ agencies were busy adjusting their schedules behind the scenes.
‘It’ll be difficult if it continues like this…’
Yu Yeon-seo sighed softly.