I Regressed to My Ruined Family Chapter 290

＃When I returned, my family was ruined (291)

Is it because I received some part of Lee Sera’s feelings? I don’t know why, but my mouth was moving spontaneously.

[How desperate would you be to beg to be taken away? But that doesn’t mean he’s completely lacking, and he’s actually a spiritist who signed a contract with the monarch.]

Even while Ethan was silent, Lorothia continued to speak.

[Even though he signed a contract with me, he probably left it behind this time and went alone. They are definitely responsible for it fading away like that.]

“Stop that.”

[Why should I stop? If you have a problem, speak up. It just keeps piling up because I’m always complaining inside.]

I felt extremely embarrassed. Is it thanks to that? I was able to read Ysera’s mind more deeply than usual.

Her face was redder than ever.

It was because of a dizzying level of shame. That was precisely the reason why they tried to hastily sever their connection with the monarch. But her attempt was blocked by the duke before it could even begin.

Ysera looked at Ethan as she felt the mana inside her body being tightly bound.

“…Duke?”

“Keep talking.”

Ethan’s mana sensitivity was among the highest in the Western Continent. Even if Lorotia helped, Ysera’s mana control was not enough to stop him.

[good. The wizard named Ilya is already performing his duties, and so are the woman who is the magician and her sister. It’s also a problem to always give work to those women. Think about it. How great is the relative deprivation?]

“Did you feel that way?”

“…Oh no, I…”

The more my inner thoughts were revealed, the more I felt a sense of shame that was driving me crazy. What was even more shocking was the fact that I couldn’t refute those words.

The more I faced the Duke’s gaze, which was looking at me half-piercingly, the more my mind turned white. Are you saying that that statement here is not true?

That was no different from lying to the duke.

To be honest, if I said I didn’t feel that way, it would definitely be a lie.

[Honestly, I don’t think my elementalist is completely useless in battle. But why are they always separated from each other? I’m also curious about this.]

“I thought it was something I could handle on my own.”

[Of course I can handle it. However, I don’t think it’s right for him to act like that and tell me to be confident. Where on earth do you have confidence?]

“….”

Ethan was speechless.

To be honest, I never imagined that Ysera would be torturing herself to this extent. There was an unpleasant incident, but wasn’t it eventually resolved through mediation?

Now that I can continue my contract without any problems, I thought that my self-esteem issues would recover on their own over time.

[After listening to the owner, I don’t think what he said was wrong? Well… because each of the other humans had a given role. In particular, all the other girls were like that except her.]

‘Was it like that?’

Ilia was active in various research and development projects, including potion manufacturing, and Sylvia was commanding the Black Moon as before and steadily collecting information. Elena acted as the duke’s deputy whenever she was away.

I had no choice but to admit that I failed to consider the feeling of alienation.

In the end, wasn’t it the same as before, even after signing a contract with the monarch?

Of course, there was a record of wiping out worshipers who invaded the duchy, but that was not just Ysera’s role. Because all of the territory’s combat personnel were deployed to defense.

Ethan, who was choosing his words for a moment, looked at Ysera.

“I’m sorry I might have thought that.”

Ethan, who apologized plainly, added:

“However, it is not that I did not accompany you due to your lack of skills as before. “I just did it because I thought it was something I could handle on my own, and I also thought you needed time.”

“…I’m fine….”

“From what I heard, I don’t think I was fine.”

“….”

[That’s right, it wouldn’t have been okay?]

“You keep saying you know something…”

[You read me too. Of course, you should think the opposite as well.]

Ysera’s mouth was tightly shut. When the Duke headed to the Land of Fire to intercede. There was definitely an explanation about memories related to Lorotia. It feels like each other is looking into each other’s inner thoughts.

It was one of the experiences that every spiritist experiences. Therefore, to the spiritists, the spirits that had been with them for a long time were their deepest understanding and companions. This process accelerated as their communication with each other increased.

Of course, sometimes this phenomenon occurred even when the communicative power itself was low. A typical example was when each person’s emotions were greatly shaken. When rapport was low, we tended to implicitly defend each other’s minds. However, as the amplitude of emotions grew, the mental defenses also tended to collapse.

That was why Ysera was able to read the monarch’s memories. The monarch who occupied his body at that time was not only extremely angry, but was also unable to hide his embarrassment.

This time, on the contrary, it was as if Lorotia had read his mind one by one.

Ethan spoke to Ysera, who was dumbfounded.

“I never think your skills and talents are lacking.”

“…really?”

“Yes, isn’t this the first monarch’s contract to appear in hundreds of years? “If you judge that a spirit master’s skills are lacking, then your eyes are no different from knotholes.”

“…Then from now on….”

“I was planning on accompanying you even if you didn’t say anything. “I will definitely need you to deal with the demon dragon.”

“…!”

Ysera’s eyes sparkled at those words. I really need you. It was because I sensed the sincerity behind these words.

“So don’t be discouraged. Because you are the talent I need. And going this route instead of having Lorotia control your body will probably be the most helpful in the end.”

The Duke’s words were full of confidence. However, it was something that Ysera could not easily believe.

There was clearly no disagreement that the method of cooperation between spiritists and spirits was the best method in the long run.

The problem was that it was included in the scope of ‘long-term’.

“…I’m not confident. You defeated three rulers in half a year. “I am not the genius of the century like the Duke…”

In the end, the problem was that the Duke continued to develop, but his own growth rate was not enough compared to that. Ethan saw Ysera’s darkened face and laughed.

“Do you remember when we first met?”

“…yes.”

Of course, don’t forget it.

It was a scene engraved in her mind. After hearing what my father said, I was furious because I thought he was trying to marry me to an old duke.

Then, upon hearing that he was a very young duke, he ran out of the estate to personally check the groom.

What followed was a series of shocks.

Especially when he completely subdued himself with a single wave of his hand, even though he had virtually the same level of skill as a 9th tier in handling the highest level elemental of fire.

For the first time, I was able to truly feel what it meant to have a shiver run through my entire body. I was fascinated by the Duke’s strength, and as time went by, I became deeply immersed in the character of Ethan, not just his strength.

So deep that I deny the self-love that used to be endlessly overflowing, and yet I can’t let him go.

If you think about it, a lot has changed. Isera also felt it.

Even before meeting the duke, she was considered the most beautiful young lady in Heidern, and she thought that she was so talented that she could overpower anyone her age with one hand.

“There was definitely a lot of self-esteem.”

Ysera’s face turned red. The first nobleman to reject him was the duke. When I looked at you with cold eyes that showed not even the slightest interest.

The memory of rushing towards her in tears was still one of the darkest moments of her life.

“I’m not saying this to make fun of you. The higher your self-esteem, the better. It’s great. “Actually, I’m very much like that.”

“…ah.”

Well…

if you think about it, it was natural.

Because there was no way for someone with such great talent, such great status, and such great power, to lack self-esteem.

“I think I liked seeing you better then than now. “It’s better to be overflowing.”

[That’s right, so passive that it’s frustrating? It makes me wonder how on earth he was so mean in the past.]

“…Did you even read my past?”

[Did I read it because I wanted to? Since your mental defense is completely breached, how do you get in?]

“Haa…”

Ysera sighed and looked at Ethan.

“…I’ll try harder from now on.”

“Okay, in that sense, let me tell you some good news that will fill your self-esteem.”

“…Good news?”

“What would it have been like if Lorotia had taken over your body? At the very least, it would have been impossible to have the monarch descend on my body. “Isn’t that right?”

“Maybe… I guess so?”

Ysera nodded. It was absurd to possess the duke while he was busy taking over his own body. If he did that, he could have lost the control he worked so hard to gain back to himself.

“But it’s different now.”

“…ah!”

When she heard the difference Ethan mentioned, she slapped her palm.

Advent.

Ninety-nine out of a hundred was a technique that could only be performed between spirit masters and spirits. The reason was simple.

This was because if the wavelength did not match the spirit, it was impossible to penetrate into another person’s body.

Since the spirit priest has already made a contract with the spirit and is at the right wavelength, it is possible for him to descend.

Excluding spirit masters, the probability of finding a human with the right wavelength was extremely low. In fact, it was good to see that it wasn’t there.

Therefore, the ways in which spiritists helped their colleagues were limited.

For example, by making a spirit dwell in an inanimate weapon with no wavelength and giving it properties, or by directly manipulating the spirit to cooperate.

But what about a duke?

‘…We might be able to directly infiltrate Lorotia and bring it into a state similar to Kangrim.’

The duke and the monarch had previously had a close relationship. From the beginning, I received the monarch’s blessing directly, and I even heard a story about a time when the monarch himself inhabited my body while helping with training. There is no need to regard Advent as an impossible option.

‘The attributes they both handle are the same…’

What if the power of the monarch and the power of the duke were mixed? The Absolute, a state that is virtually legendary and considered unattainable to humans.

Maybe I could show off that level of power. It was clearly a result that could not be shown when Lorotia took control of her body.