I Will Live As An Actor Chapter 46

I Will Live as an Actor Episode 46 (This is a paid serial.)

The nation’s first love.

Is it okay for me to receive such an undeserved title when I am neither an Olympic athlete nor a politician? After the drama ‘Youth’ aired, everything in England started to become popular. From short hairstyles to neat school uniforms.

Thanks to this, it is the student leaders of middle and high schools who are at risk. The delinquent students who used to wear bulky pants and dirty hairstyles began to follow the example of England, and their clothes naturally became neater.

“Meow.”

A calico cat sitting on a fish stall rubs its head. Britain won’t know. The fact that this meow is the cub of the mother who ate the fish she gave at the tribunal three years ago. Perhaps this is why cats follow England like a pet cat.

“Meow, I have to go to the store now.”

“Meow.”

“Wait.”

As England enters the auction house, the auctioneers who have finished the morning auction look on with narrowed eyes. I tried to cover it up as much as possible by wearing a hat, but I couldn’t hide the familiar eyes. When England greeted him first, the auctioneers and wholesalers who recognized him greeted him warmly. England gets a small fish from the gap in the basket and says goodbye to the cat.

“Mura a lot.”

“Meow.”

It is a cat that answers as loudly as the horn of a docking boat and runs vigorously along the dockside with a fish larger than its own body in its mouth. As I run away, I blink and don’t forget to say goodbye.

South Port is the same as before leaving. The maze-like market is still overflowing with the dialect made up of Busan ladies, and there seem to be more tourists than ever wandering around, providing eye candy. The fishy smell of fish, which I hated so much in my past life, now feels unpleasant. I feel like I want to stop by a coffee shop, have a cup of Ssanghwa tea, and relax, but I don’t have time for that.

England, the son of South Port!

I stopped in front of a store with a cool sign. As I forcefully open the sliding door and enter, the scenery I have longed for so much unfolds. Tourists watch around the mother, who is quite skilled at preparing fish. England, wearing his hat tightly, stands in line pretending to be a customer and waits for his turn. And when it was my turn, I lowered my voice and asked.

“As a young lady, what is the most delicious?”

“All the strange fish at our store are delicious. The horse mackerel is meaty and the sea urchins are in season, so their roe is juicy.”

“Is this the store owned by actor Jang Young-guk?”

“That’s right, as you can see from the company name, my son Raemi is! Hey, when did you come down?”

His mother, who was busy moving around without even having time to straighten her waist, finally saw England’s face and approached him happily.

“How come you don’t even know my son Raemi’s voice?”

“I’m out of my mind. Even my son survived, and all my sons survived. Everyone survived, mom.”

I barely caught my mother trying to kick her ass. A mixture of surprise and joy flowed through my mother’s eyes. Eventually, the mother and son embrace each other and welcome the happy anniversary. Not only do tourists flock to the sudden appearance of England, but even Mr. Yang, who was selling at the store next door, comes rushing in.

“Oh my! What kind of chaos is this? Now that England is here, customers are coming in at random! Everyone stand straight! If you want to get an autograph, stand straight!”

Ms. Yang personally steps forward to lead the flock of tourists, who are waiting for a happy reunion with their mother. As a great merchant who has experienced many hardships in the Namhang market, his control is so powerful that most managers cannot even show off their business cards.

“Kook, did you come down suddenly?”

“Tomorrow is the anniversary of my father’s death. Are you afraid you’ll forget that too? Since it’s a day without filming, I came down right away. The CEO even prepared a separate plane ticket for me, so you don’t have to worry.”

“Kkkoo! You can say hello later and sort things out yourself. It’s complicated. Bokjaba!”

England turns around at the call of Lady Yang. They clap their hands towards the tourists lined up and focus their attention.

“Now, if you come next to me, I will do it in your turn. I would be grateful if you could buy me a monster fish from Namhang as well!”

“Dojin (England) oppa! I’ll buy ten!”

“That would be great! While you’re here, take some good food and make it delicious. I’m sure a lot of people will visit Namhang in the future, right?”

I feel like I have returned to my childhood. Like the time when I set up a fish stall with my mother and shouted at the tourists. The mother looks proudly at her son receiving love and signing autographs from so many people.

* * *

As if I had gone back to the days when I was living in a rented room at an inn and then renting a shack without even a deposit, I laid down a thick blanket and laid down in the same room as my mother. After moving to an apartment, we had a separate room, but for some reason, I wanted to be together today just like we did back then.

“Mom, would you like to go up to Seoul with me?”

“Seoul? Are you here all of a sudden?”

Not suddenly. It’s something I’ve had in mind for a long time. My mother’s hands are covered in calluses from cleaning fish, and her skin is rough and dry from the sea breeze. Moreover, I felt bad today when I saw him working without being able to straighten his back properly.

“I am grateful that the government has you, but why bother causing such trouble?”

“Not your house. We can buy a house.”

“A house? In Seoul?”

My mother opens her eyes the size of a lantern. The reason was simple. Although it is not yet the time when housing prices in Seoul are skyrocketing, it is a world of difference compared to Yeongdo. But there’s no need to worry. After appearing in the drama ‘Youth’, advertisement offers are pouring in like a flood.

I still had time, so I could actually shoot a few commercials if I wanted to. Although he didn’t become an actor for money, England was willing to do anything for his mother.

“My son has earned a lot of money. But he has a child named Kook.”

Mother’s wrinkled hand holds England’s hand.

“I like Yeongdo. I like the seagulls crying on the dockside. I also like the smell of the sea among people. I think it would be awkward if I didn’t smell the fish anymore. I know you’re worried, but I don’t have the strength to work anymore. “I don’t say hello, but it’s actually better. There’s Miss Yang and a lot of other interesting merchants.”

It was then.

“England is the mother! Are you sleeping?”

The voice of Ms. Yang’s voice comes from beyond the front door, saying that even tigers will come if you tell them what to do. It seems that nobility is not good. England gets up, turns on the light and opens the front door. There, you can see a mother and daughter who brought some late-night snacks.

“Myeongja, what are you doing? Yeongguk is your older brother. That’s right. Let’s go and buy a whole chicken to catch it. I’m scared. Come, hide behind me and stick your head out. Just say hello.”

“Hello, Myeongja.”

“Hello brother.”

She is the daughter of a lady from the Yang clan who pronounces her words as clearly as possible, as if trying to erase the awkwardness of the dialect. Since they were hungry at the time, their mother and England welcomed them. Myeongja’s face is clearly visible under the brightly shining lights, so no matter how you look at it, she looks just like Ms. Yang. Late at night, ahead of the anniversary of my father’s death, the smell of whole chicken and the sound of laughter do not stop. This is why my mother has such a good spirit.

* * *

When I was young, I didn’t even have the energy to check the anniversary of my father’s death. Since I lived in an inn, I had never even held a proper ancestral rite, let alone a ancestral rite table. I replaced my longing and sadness by simply throwing adverbs on the beach.

“Britain is my favourite. The country has come.”

My father, who passed away suddenly, was swept away by the rolling waves while fishing. There wasn’t even time to prepare a portrait photo. Therefore, my father’s portrait photo shows him just coming down to the dock after finishing his fishing job, as if to prove that he was a fisherman during his lifetime.

Although you can’t see him in the photo, where he was smiling so hard that his rough beard was tearing apart, there was a young me in his arms.

“Father, I’m here.”

I bow to my father in neatly dressed clothes. In my last life, I didn’t look for my father. Instead of going down to Yeongdo on the anniversary of his death, he used that as an excuse to go to a bar. I vaguely resented my father who left us behind when we were young. They all went out fishing even in inclement weather for the sake of their families.

“Father, am I doing well?”

But this life will be different. Didn’t you have a goal in life that you couldn’t achieve in your past life? My mother is looking at me happily, and my father in the portrait photo is also looking at me with a bright smile, thinking that they are a married couple. Looking at that smile, I feel like I can vividly hear my father’s generous voice.

-Of course! Guk says whose son are you?

* * *

After the memorial service, I had to go back to Seoul because of the filming schedule. My mother packs various things for me as I leave for the airport. He came to Seoul a month ago and brought us some cold food, but that alone doesn’t seem to be enough to reassure him. Heading to the airport with both hands full of wrapping cloth.

“I’ll come again next time, Mom.”

“Aida. You’re busy, but I’ll come up, so don’t push yourself.”

“Really? Then, whenever you miss your son, don’t hesitate to come up.”

This is something I have never said in my past life. Why did I have to give up this ordinary happiness and live at that time? But now, more than ever, I look forward to my mother’s visit to Seoul.

As soon as I arrived at Gimpo Airport, I saw Bongchun come out to meet me. It was after we left the airport and got into the car together.

“England, let’s stop by the agency first.”

“why?”

“Well, the CEO stopped by and left.”

Upon arriving at Songwon Entertainment and entering the representative office, CEO Seonghwan Kim warmly welcomes me. He handed me a script and asked me how I spent the anniversary of my father’s death.

“I think England will be in a state of confusion when you return from your hometown. I want to give you this quickly.”

“What is this?”

“I reviewed the movie script first, and the work seemed good, and the shooting period didn’t overlap with Youth, so I thought it would be okay.”

“What kind of work is this? Since the CEO said so, I’m even more curious?”

“The director there said that he had to quickly decide on the main character due to pressure from investment companies, but no matter how you look at it, England seemed like the perfect role to expand your acting range. I wanted to show you quickly, so I called this manager right away. You are still a minor, but this is a very drastic transformation. It may take a while, but actors are actors, not products. It seems like it would be difficult to get the timing right if it wasn’t now.”

What kind of script is that? However, as if to show that what CEO Kim Seong-Hwan said was not a lie, I felt goosebumps all over my body as soon as I opened the first page of the script. The first paragraph of the screenplay captures attention. It’s definitely a familiar sentence.

In my last life, it was the screenplay ‘Confessions of a Priest’ that I acted out during the university entrance exam.

* * *

As the full moon rises, the night wind blows over the crock pot. The old pine trees move as if dancing in the night breeze. I sat in the spacious main hall and opened the script while listening to the sound of wind chimes hanging under the eaves shaking.

‘A priest’s confession.’

It would be a lie if I said that the feeling was not new. Because it was a script that awakened my talent for acting in my past life. It was a talent as small as a firefly, but wasn’t it the work that ignited the fuse? It brings back memories as if it brings back nostalgia for old memories.

“I don’t think it was very successful.”

The screenplay was great. Despite his appearance on the outside, the main character is a cynical and thoroughly calculating person on the inside. Additionally, he has no hesitation in killing evildoers as if he were eating a meal.

All murder cannot be justified, but ironically, it is even more shocking because the person in question is a priest. Even if he goes to hell, there is a story behind his murder. The audience will only find out once they reach the middle of the movie.

Nevertheless, why was this movie not a hit?

Crucially, the acting of the actor who won the role was not good. Perhaps it was due to the pressure from the investment company, but the directing collapsed is also one of the reasons for the box office failure. Among the misfortunes, the good news is that the outstanding scripts left from that time survived and became textbooks for acting universities.

“Can I do it?”

The only answer is the shaking scenery. The script itself is very attractive. Isn’t this a work where the main character’s emotional changes are outstanding? In fact, that may be why this movie failed. With ordinary acting, it would have been difficult to understand and persuade the audience beyond the screen.

“Even if it is screened, I won’t be able to see it in the theater.”

It is common for minors to appear in films that are not suitable for minors. Especially in Hollywood, don’t child actors already show a wide range of acting skills regardless of age? I felt like I could understand why CEO Kim Seong-hwan recommended ‘Confessions of a Priest.’

‘An actor is not a product, but a person who acts.’

I like CEO Seonghwan Kim’s philosophy. If you were the CEO of an ordinary agency, if you used the title of the nation’s first love as a weapon to explore the teen genre, you would definitely be able to gain not only recognition but also superior profits in terms of appearance fees. But if that happens.

“The range of roles is limited.”

Just as a plant spreads its branches by climbing on a support pole, the same goes for actors. If you are confined to a limited genre, the branches have no choice but to point in that direction. In that sense, CEO Seonghwan Kim is already trying to get me to make a lot of branches. In particular, it would be a golden opportunity for me, who could not erase the image of a child actor between a boy and a young man.

“Confessions of a Priest.”

Read the script again. The sentences that captivated me as soon as I opened each page were enough to make me fall into that swamp. I was so immersed in the night breeze that I didn’t even realize how much time had passed.

-I experienced countless deaths under my father, who was an undertaker since I was young. He studied theology, became a priest, and prayed before the dying man, but could he really be saved? The victim turns to dust and the perpetrator lives on without a moment of hesitation.

What exactly is sin?

Hehehe.

At that moment, the old pine trees sway and dance in the night breeze. It was that moment. England’s gaze catches the eye of a sentence in the script that matches the current sound.

-The whistling sound is not made by him. It is a sin born by a wicked person. Just as a stigma cannot be erased, sin cannot be washed away, so it is the last word that flows from the heart of a dying wicked person.