I Will Live As An Actor Chapter 52

I Will Live as an Actor Episode 52

Is it because of the solemnity of the black means (soutane) that the reporters are reluctant to open their mouths? Anyway, the host also paused for a moment and was busy appreciating England. The deep eyes between the neat bangs and the white collar on the black clothes create a strange harmony, making this place seem reverent, as if it were a parish.

How much time has passed? The host, who was briefly fascinated by the sight of the priest (England), comes to his senses and taps the microphone.

“Sorry for distracting you for a moment. Now, let’s start the production presentation for ‘Confessions of a Priest’! Before the ceremony, I will formally introduce the Confessions of a Priest filming team and the main supporting cast! First, I will write the screenplay Confessions of a Priest. “Director Shin Seong-hyun took the megaphone!

….”

The host spoke in a booming voice. Thanks to this, the reporters were able to come to their senses. As if I was possessed by a ghost, I was mesmerized by the halo I felt as soon as England appeared. When the host calls the name of the main character (England), they start to get busy pressing camera shutters here and there.

‘You’re still frozen.’

When the reporters’ Q&A session arrived, Director Shin Seong-hyun’s expression became stiff. In the future, the production presentation was held in a relaxed atmosphere as if it were a tea party, but now it was different.

As proof of this, director Shin Seong-hyeon’s fingers as he held the microphone were shaking slightly. It’s no different from other people. Everyone is answering with great tension, as if they were criminals attending a hearing.

“I would like to ask actor Jang Young-guk. Is there a reason why you decided to do ‘Confessions of a Priest’ as your next work, in which you play a murderer even though it is not suitable for young people? It is too unconventional to be a simple image change. I asked if there was any friction within the agency. I would like to. For example, did you choose a role that expressed dissatisfaction due to a disagreement with the CEO? Or was there any noise between terrestrial broadcasters? I heard that the three broadcasters made an effort to cast Jang Young-guk? ”

Look at this guy.

The question pretends to be polite, but there is a thorn in the question. Not all reporters have a sense of duty like war correspondents. That’s why I’m careful about every word the actor says. Not only do they pick on a single slip of the tongue and interpret it to a greater extent, but they also make up their own opinion (official opinion) as if it were the truth. Whether in the future or now, trash still exists.

However, I have been through too many times with these little guys. Just as I was about to grab the microphone and show off my tricks.

Coach Shin Seong-hyun picks up the microphone first. There is a clear expression of anger on his face.

“Reporter, if you don’t mind, may I answer on behalf of actor Jang Young-guk?”

“I definitely asked a question to actor Jang Young-guk, right?”

Director Shin Seong-hyeon explains further without paying attention to the question of what the problem is.

“It’s a question that Actor Jang doesn’t need to answer. By that logic, is the reporter’s disheveled clothes because he had a disagreement with his wife last night? His bloodshot eyes make it look like he didn’t sleep well, which is what happened at today’s press conference. Did you have any difficulties getting there?”

“What… are you talking about to a reporter?”

“It’s the same for actors. They said they chose the role because of a disagreement with the CEO. How absurd is that? An actor is a person who acts. When selecting a role, he only puts the script first and does not consider the interests of reality. “I don’t. Lastly, I think you should think of yourself as a judge and priest rather than a murderer. I know I gave you a pre-interview sheet in advance, but I hope you read it well.”

Hey!

I never thought director Shin Seong-hyeon would be this bold. Just a moment ago, he seemed surprised and nervous by the number of reporters, but it was completely different. After a moment of silence, another reporter asks a question.

“Actor Jang Young-guk seems to have a bright future as an actor. To be honest, I have never seen a young actor make such a bold decision in my career as a journalist. If he plays this role well, I think he will be able to completely break away from the image of a child actor. “I’m thinking about it.”

He is a middle-aged reporter. This is someone I saw once at a script reading. Did you say his name was Kwak Myeong-hwan? I heard that he is quite a well-known person among reporters.

Of course, in my past life, when I was making a name for myself, I couldn’t find if he had retired. After all, didn’t he make a name for himself only when he became famous?

“But when I received the preliminary interview, this thought occurred to me. The main character in the script is a priest who acts as a judge. What is the evil that the main character defines?”

Yes, the question should be like this. It is normal for a Q&A to be held regarding the film. Rather than touching the actor’s private parts. Soon, a solemn voice comes out.

“Before I tell you the main character’s thoughts, I will borrow the words of another person I know. I think that evil is not only invisible to the eye, but can be seen often even if we only look at our neighbors. We commit evil deeds without repentance or regret. There are many characters who live their lives. You may think that they are more evil than invisible beings. However, my definition of evil in the main character is slightly different from this. For the answer, see it for yourself in the theater. I would appreciate it if you could give it to me.”

A satisfied smile appeared on the reporter’s face, as if he liked the answer. The questions that followed were all expected, so I had time to answer them with a joke in between.

The host also seems to have relaxed and now his mouth is flying like a butterfly. I heard he came from a comedian background and I think we fit together quite well.

Meanwhile,

others, including director Shin Seong-hyun, are wiping their sweat in amazement. Even those who have experienced hardships in the movie industry tend to be nervous at the production presentation, but isn’t the lead actor (England), who is no different from a new actor, leading the atmosphere?

Moreover, the way he occasionally jokes with reporters makes it seem as if he has been through this situation hundreds of times. Thanks to this, laughter bloomed for a moment at the frozen production presentation site.

* * *

The day after the production presentation, articles related to ‘Confessions of a Priest’ began to flood in. If it had been an ordinary movie press conference, articles wouldn’t have sprung up like this.

After all, isn’t this the next work of the actor who earned the title of the nation’s first love? It was only natural that I would be interested.

‘You wrote it so well?’

The articles written by reporter Kwak Myung-hwan and other senior reporters in the entertainment industry were mostly complimentary.

‘Even as a new actor, I walk the unwavering path of becoming an actor.’

Isn’t the article amazing? Of course, there are not only articles praising it. There were articles spreading rumors that the movie would fail in the name of an unconventional image change, but the number was so small that you couldn’t see it unless you looked for it. Even more so.

“Jungseok hyung, when did you do an interview like this?”

This is actor Song Jeong-seok, who has appeared on TV a lot over the past three years. As he earned the name of a national actor in his past life, his acting skills are improving day by day.

Thanks to this, he appeared not only in dramas but also in entertainment shows and documentaries, and in an interview with a weekly magazine, he chose me as the person who changed his values during his acting career.

A beautiful story.

-I have a friend who gave me white rice and a warm bed when I had nothing. Although the child was young, he was much more mature than me and gave me a compass in life as I was contemplating my future as an actor. Reporter, do you know what it tastes like to eat rice mixed with tears? I still can’t forget the sumptuous feast I ate back then.

It’s unfamiliar. In a way, my younger self was simply repaying the kindness that national actor Song Jeong-seok had shown me in my past life. As I was reading the newspaper for a while, a shadow appeared over my head.

“England, why are you smiling so heartily this morning?”

“Please pretend to be my uncle! I was surprised!”

“How come I called you several times to come down to eat, but you couldn’t come? By the way, that friend Kwak Myeong-hwan wrote your article really well, right?”

“Do you know my uncle?”

“I wonder if there are actors in the entertainment industry who don’t know about him. I’m surprised that a friend of the same age as me is still active in the industry. He originally worked as a reporter not only in the entertainment industry but also in the social and economic field, so he took the position of editor-in-chief at a newspaper. “They said they would give it to me, but they refused and are still on site. In some ways, you can say that they have a strong work ethic, but they can also be eccentric. I heard that the newspaper company eventually gave them the position of editor-in-chief at the end of this year.”

Chief Editor: Refers to one of the top managers of a newspaper company who determines the editing and direction of a publication. So I had no choice but to not know. By the way, reporter Kwak Myeong-hwan is a really great guy. In a way, isn’t it like the team leader skips the intermediate process and goes straight to the position of executive?

“Let’s stop looking for articles and come down and have breakfast. The bean sprout soup the lady made today is spicy and very spicy. It really relieves my stomach.”

It looks like my uncle drank a lot of medicinal wine last night. Seeing that the tip of the grandfather’s nose was still stained red, the two of them must have been relieved of their worries. After finishing breakfast with spicy bean sprout soup prepared by the housekeeper, it was time to get ready for school.

“England, take this with you.”

Grandfather (Director Baek Jang-hoon) offers something. It is a handkerchief with wild chrysanthemums embroidered on it. It is worn, showing signs of passage of time, but it is still sturdy because it has been so well maintained.

“Grandpa, what is this?”

“It’s something my grandmother wore on her person every time she filmed a movie. It’s like a talisman. While the filming locations for dramas are somewhat safe, the filming locations for movies aren’t. The filming locations change from time to time. Aside from independent films, this is my first film as a lead actor. “I’m giving it to you so you don’t get hurt while filming.”

What kind of story does this handkerchief contain? When I bowed my head deeply and expressed my gratitude, my grandfather smiled and patted my head. My uncle, who was watching it from the side, said something.

“Brother, why did you give that precious thing to England and not lend it to me?”

“I wonder if old Joonghyun is the same as you and England, who is just growing up. And even if I had given it to you, you would have kept it with you. It’s a good thing you didn’t lose it.”

I pedal my bike, leaving my uncle and grandfather arguing behind me. The handkerchief in my chest seems to warm my heart.

* * *

38.7%

This is the highest viewership rating for the drama ‘Youth’. As the final episode approaches, the SBC Drama Department is excited about whether it will be able to exceed 40%. That’s because none of the dramas produced by SBC over the past five years has had a viewership rating of over 40%.

“Jin Kim!”

The drama director shouts at the partition. The other PDs clearly look surprised by that sight. After all, isn’t PD Kim Jin the number one contributor to the drama department?

However, the director’s expression was unusual, so he seemed very angry. At that time, Kim Jin, who is squatting on one side of the partition, raises his head and looks at the youngest PD.

“Howon, director, are you in?”

“Sir, that’s not it.”

“My legs are numb and I’m going to die. Tell me quickly. If I had known this would happen, I wouldn’t have chatted and would have run straight to the entertainment department. But why is your expression like that?”

As the youngest PD’s face turns red, the director, whose face has turned red, suddenly raises his head. Then Kim Jin, who was squatting down, jumps up from his seat and pours out excuses that are not excuses.

“Oh my gosh, why is the pen missing? Uh! Director, what’s going on?”

“It’s a good thing that the youngest asked me to do. Don’t think about making a fuss and follow me!”

In the end, Kim Jin is dragged away as a calf to the slaughterhouse. As soon as you enter the director’s office, the director picks up the ‘final banquet plan’ placed on the table and shouts.

“Hey! Does it make sense that you’re planning to hold a closing party at a theater? Also, what about Korean beef for the second round? Did you just come up with this as a plan for a closing party? “I have to contact the reporters right away, so what are you going to do?”

“Whatever you want, you can just do it as is.”

“You’re talking about comfort and falling asleep! I thought you were the only ones attending the closing party! Reporters will come, I will come, and the vice president may also come, so does it make sense to do it in a theater? Just change it back to the hotel convention hall. Even if you deliberately spend a lot of money to make the final party look great, you still act like a tree frog!”

“How long are you going to be so formal? It would be better if I did it at a convention hall. But the filming team and actors feel uncomfortable. To put it bluntly, this is a place for actors from the filming team who have had a hard time filming the drama to vent, and reporters will come and interview them, and even the director will come by, and in the end, the vice president will come, so it’s easy to get drunk at a place like that.

” It is a place where actors and the filming team talk about their hardships. However, it has become so formal that reporters have come and interviewed, and even the executives of the broadcasting station have their faces stamped. Everyone refrains from talking, but it is not such a place. It would be a lie if I said it wasn’t burdensome.

“It’s the same with doing it in the theater. We all decided to watch the last episode together, but wouldn’t it be better to watch it on the big screen as the great great good? In a way, it’s like appreciating the last moments of a baby born with a hungry stomach! To be honest, there were many times when the director felt uncomfortable during the closing party during his time as a Pyeong PD. How difficult is it to be humbled by a vice president who didn’t even show his nose at the filming site? And it would be nice if only the Vice President would come. They said he would come with a bunch of executives hanging next to him. I’d rather ask for a bigger gold salary!”

“Hey, are you the director? What happened to my child that he acts only to win and eat? “Is the theater already ready?”

“It’s already been rented.”

“Now that you understand, go out. I’ll try to talk to the Vice President.”

The Drama Director, completely fed up, is shaking his head. Producer Kim Jin, who had just walked out the door, sticks his face out into the Director’s office and asks. “Director

, what about our Phuket?

” You’re a real kid!”

When the director makes a gesture to throw the name plate, Kim Jin suddenly closes the door to the director’s office. The director lets out a deep sigh as he puts down the name plate. At times, he seems to behave like a master of social life. At times like this, there’s no such thing as a colt with no reins loose.

Still, I don’t hate it. Just seeing him carry his gun for fear of inconvenience to his family is like that. Isn’t it only with a guy like that that this bleak drama country can develop?

* * *

Leaving school ( After finishing the ceremony, I visited the Archdiocese in my school uniform. Congregants are leaving the cathedral as if announcing the end of the afternoon mass, and priests in priestly uniforms are walking. “Soutane, which was worn at the production presentation of Brother.

” ) suits it very well. It is difficult to find a priest who suits our parish so well. “Take it now. When the tea cools, it tastes less good.”

The archbishop smiles kindly and hands you a teacup. As can be seen from his personality, the archbishop’s office is filled with old and worn things. Bibles and rosaries that clearly show the traces of time. The same is true even if you only look at the archbishop.

“You must have received the script for the movie from the archbishop through the production company, but I was worried that I couldn’t tell you in advance, so I came to you like this.”

“No, it’s not. On the contrary, if I had listened to the story from the brother, the entertainment might have cooled down. For the first time in a long time, I stayed up all night reading the script. I don’t know how many times I have read passages like The Sorrows of Werther, which I read when I was young. And I was worried. I wonder if the young brother will be able to handle this script well.”

“In what way?”

the Archbishop elaborates, putting down his teacup.

“The main character is a person who has done a lot of introspection. As if you are going to confession for the karma you have done, you are accumulating condemnation in your heart. I was worried that if I played such a character, pus would form in my brother’s heart. Can I ask you just one question? Brother, what do you think evil is?” This

is a question I asked a while ago. But this time, the situation has changed and the archbishop is asking me. If I had heard it on the first day I visited the archdiocese, I would have felt frustrated, as if I was facing an unresolved problem. But now it is different.

“Because their hearts are evil and their actions are evil, they are put to shame and become ensnared.” I look at the sinner trapped in the snare, but my sad gaze is not on the sinner, but on those who have been harmed by him. The sentiment I saw in the Psalms is what I felt.”

The archbishop briefly nods his head in a voice oozing reverence.

“I guess my concern was rain.”

“Archbishop, the image in the movie tarnishes the image of the church (cathedral). “Didn’t you think you could do it?”

It was an honest concern. It was true that I was uncomfortable because the image of the priest in the movie was completely opposite to the good image that people thought of. However, the archbishop did not care at all and showed his unique kind-hearted attitude. He smiles again. He then holds up his rosary and explains,

“There is no right answer in religion. The content of faith is for the believers and not determined by religion. Therefore, the content in the script is not important. There is freedom of expression in this society, and no matter what the movie says, it cannot harm faith. I think that is the power of religion.” At

that moment, under the deacons’ chant, the setting red sunset illuminates the bell on the steeple.