I Will Live As An Actor Chapter 57

I Will Live as an Actor Episode 57

“What do you think, Director Choi?”

“I was surprised.”

Choi Yul (music director) did not hide his emotions and expressed them. It was an intro shoot. Since it was a curtain-raising scene, I had no choice but to be careful. It was expected that there would be an unknown number of re-filmings.

After all, there is no such thing as a standard employment contract on a movie set. Therefore, it was true that the culture of filming until it was done was widespread. however.

‘I never thought I would do it in one go.’

The face of the main character (England), who has finished filming the intro, is extremely peaceful. It’s hard to tell whether the image he showed in front of the camera just a moment ago was a mask, or whether the image of him having a comfortable conversation with the staff was a mask.

“Director Shin, do you usually finish your first filming like this in one go?”

“No. I wonder if my nickname is Bull Stubborn for no reason. In my previous work, I filmed the first five minutes of filming over two days, so not only the actors but also the director of photography criticized me. They asked me if I was the only one here who was artistic. But today, there was a scene that looked like art. “I threw it away, so I shouted cut without realizing it. Actually, I feel like taking another picture, but I don’t want to do that. I’m afraid it might leave a blemish on a good picture.”

Art.

It’s not wrong.

As he faced his first filming, Director Choi Yul was reminded of Beethoven’s Symphony Egmont Overture. A series of majestic, majestic and spirited melodies. When the young priest listed the seven sins, my heart was pounding violently without me realizing it, and when he talked about the last sin, it felt like a trumpet was sounding.

“Director Choi, let’s go to the next filming location.”

Choi Yul is finally coming to terms with director Shin Seong-hyeon’s words. In film shooting, there is no limited number of scenes per day. Thanks to this, I repeat filming over and over again. Before we knew it, the filming location had moved from the interrogation room to the morgue set. As soon as we entered the morgue, Assistant Director Kim Seok-cheol spoke while holding his nose.

“What kind of smell is this?”

Then, the prop foreman, who doesn’t know when he was there, sprays something on the morgue floor and shouts,

“What kind of smell!” “It’s the smell of a rotting corpse!”

“The smell of a rotting corpse.”

“If you’re that curious, ask Director Shin! Thinking about my previous work, I thought I would only film the intro today. I would have guessed that we would move straight to the morgue scene like this. The director tells us to recreate the same smell to maximize the atmosphere of the scene. Oh, it’s really strong! “If there’s anyone with rhinitis, I’ll get my nose pierced today.”

Of course, a camera cannot express the sense of smell. However, directors who value liveliness try to make the situations in the script look like real situations. Among them, director Shin Seong-hyeon is one of those people. He values liveliness above all else. As proof of this, he spent a huge sum of 3 million won just to produce a dummy (corpse model).

“Can I act properly here?”

As assistant director Kim Seok-cheol said to himself, the smell of rotting food was inside the morgue. The head of the props was also showing off, but he looked a bit embarrassed. Even in his own opinion, he had sprayed too much spray (a rotten smell). But it wasn’t until filming started that he realized that

it was all for naught. I knew it.

It’s a scene reminiscent of the past.

The main character’s (England) father dies in a hit-and-run. The body is so crushed that it’s hard to recognize its shape and has been stitched up to a crude level.

It’s so gruesome. The staff at the filming site, who know that it is a dummy (cadaver model), also avoid making eye contact with the dummy. Moreover, the putrefying smell stings their noses, making it difficult to breathe properly.

However,

they sob as they face their father’s corpse. Everyone is left speechless by the appearance of the main character (England). England, who had shown a stern appearance until the morning filming, is now a bachelor attending seminary.

“Father…”

He used to be a funeral director. I once helped my father and came face to face with a corpse that had drowned. Even when I saw a corpse with its skin peeling and its body collapsed beyond recognition, I was not shaken. When I was young, I thought my father, who was an undertaker, was a person without emotions. The same goes for me. It was. I thought he had become infinitely insensitive to death.

Under his calm eyes, his tears flow endlessly. Director Shin Seong-hyun, who was watching, clenches his fists. The priest who later commits serial murder erases his last remaining emotions. Because I could feel what I was putting out on my skin.

* * *

“Phew.”

There is no better way to greet a refreshing morning than jogging along the riverside. Time continues to pass and the abrasions suffered during the fan meeting are almost completely healed. After learning the truth, CEO Kim Seong-hwan was so angry that he went to a famous dermatologist and received treatment. Thanks to this, there are not even any scars on the wide back plate.

Sure enough, I went down to the first floor with a towel wrapped around my neck.

“Uncle, it seems like you come to work here every morning.”

“An old bachelor living alone should at least eat a hearty breakfast. Don’t be so mean. Do you know how lonely it is to be alone in an apartment? There is no warmth in the room. There is no warmth.”

“That’s why I tell you to go even if you’re late.”

“Assuming you haven’t gone to a wedding, you and I are in the same situation. The little bastard is now trying to teach Uncle Joo. Hey, I used to wipe your nose with a handkerchief when you were dripping!”

“What are you talking about? How old were you when I first met you?”

“Yes, you are good, you are good.”

In fact, it is true that we are in the same situation as my uncle said. Even in my past life, I haven’t met a relationship like this. All relationships are built only when you have enough time to build them, but since I was only crazy about acting, how could any girl like me?

“England, I’m not making fun of an old bachelor. Look at me, how lonely I must have been for a national actor to come to my house and eat all my food on the first day of my life.”

“No! Is your brother like this too?”

“So, as England says, why don’t you go get married late? Why do you treat reporters like they’re eating? The reason you couldn’t get married is because you don’t want to settle down in one place.”

“No, if I meet a woman, it won’t be unfair to me.”

The breakfast place is cozy. Anyway, I don’t mind my grandfather, me, or my uncle coming over.

In fact, contrary to her solemn title as a national actress, she enjoys chatting in private more than most high school girls. Thanks to this, laughter never ends in the house, so when uncle comes, the atmosphere is different.

“Yeong-guk, now that I think about it, Hyeong-seop praises you a lot.”

“Senior Kim Hyeong-seop?”

“Oh, the guy who calls me uncle always calls Hyungseop his senior. Hey, I’m 3 years older than Hyungseop in terms of debut.”

“Are Uncle A and senior Kim Hyeong-seop the same? Okay. So, from now on, will you always call me senior Ahn Jung-hyeon?”

“Anyway, he’s a guy that I can’t beat with words. Anyway, Hyeong-seop, he’s a friend who is considered one of the worst among licorice players in Korea, and he never evaluates other people’s acting. But one day, he called me and praised me a lot. The other actor was also a rookie. It’s the first time I’ve seen someone praise you like that. What kind of magic are you doing on set?”

“There’s nothing like that?”

“The more I think about it, the more amazing it is. I wonder if I’m fascinated by my older brother, who is called a tiger in the film industry. The producers I worked with are full of praise, and Kwak Myung-hwan isn’t the type of person to speak up. Don’t be like this, let’s do the next project with me. I’ll give it a try. “I need to see what you do on set.”

After breakfast, when I came out wearing my school uniform for the first time in a while, my grandfather asked me a question.

“It looks like you’re going to school today instead of a filming location.”

“Yes, Grandpa. It’s my day off from filming.”

Thanks to the convenience provided by the school, I only had to meet the required number of days of attendance, so there was no problem filming the movie. These days, I have been running non-stop. I could have taken a day off under the pretext of filming a movie, but is today such an important day?

As if reading my mind, my uncle next to me asked me a question.

“If it were me, I would have skipped school and overslept. Why is it that young people start jogging in the morning? They don’t even sleep in the morning like old people.”

“Today is the day of the mock exam. I must go.”

“Mock test?”

As England pedals his bicycle and goes out of sight, Ahn Jung-hyun, who was sitting in the main hall, asks Baek Jang-hun.

“Brother, that guy is always ranked first in school these days, right?”

Baek Jang-hoon only smiles happily and does not respond in any particular way. Looking at the back of England moving away, Ahn Jung-hyun clicks his tongue and explains more.

“I have it all. I have it all.”

* * *

Cold weather.

There is a saying that autumn grains grow in cold dew. As we enter the period when all things ripen, the autumn leaves turn red and the silver grass sways with golden waves. Meanwhile, the filming site is busy. The filming site at dawn is like a job market.

As a rusty drum starts to light a bonfire holding firewood, they huddle together to warm their hands. This is because touching filming equipment with frozen hands can easily lead to an accident.

“Winter is still a long way away, but the early morning wind is this cold. Come on! Everyone, take a hand warmer. There are three per person!! No more.”

“Seok Cheol (assistant director), how can you get away with three? Please increase it in a humane way. What are you using all the production money for? We are using it for something like this. For our filming, we had to hold the camera with our bare hands, so we couldn’t even choose with that much! ”

“Senior Park (Director of Photography): It’s just the camera. Lighting also has to be done with bare hands. The person receiving the light is warm, but it’s so cold standing there holding a reflector in this harsh wind. Are our youngest members going to freeze to death?”

“Seonwoo (Lighting Director), are you already lashing out at your senior for wearing a topknot? You can take too much care of your own family, but have you already forgotten how much I cared for you when you were a snobbery?”

“How could you forget that? My senior scolded me for the poor positioning of the butterfly (reflector). He told me, a rookie who had only been in the lighting team for three months, to find a way other than lighting.”

“Did I do that?”

“I don’t remember the person who hit me because they knew I would do this.”

“Man, how can you remember every single thing that happened over ten years ago? Still, it’s because I told you that that you’ve stubbornly survived and become a lighting director until now. I said that out of love. Those weaklings can’t stand this.”

It’s not wrong. Is it for no reason that they call it Park Bong (薄俸)? Moreover, it is a workplace that does not even cover the four major insurance policies.

Assuming that 100 youngest children come to Chungmuro every year, less than 30 survive the year. It is such a difficult road. Seniors already know that if it doesn’t suit your aptitude, the answer is to find another path. It was then.

“Everyone, please eat some of this!”

England comes carrying something in a box. Sweet potatoes wrapped in silver foil. Because it was an early morning shoot, few people came with breakfast. When you put sweet potatoes in between the drum bonfires, the aroma is overwhelming. The director of photography gives a thumbs up to the fragrant scent.

“Wow, England has at least one sense of humor! What on earth did you think about this?”

“In the past, when I was in Yeongdo, I often went out early in the morning to set up a fish stall. The sea breeze is cold at the port, so even in early fall, it’s chilly like winter. So, to warm up, the adults in the market drink a glass of soju each and eat mackerel grilled over charcoal fire. In the same case, I often brought sweet potatoes with me. I heard that just one of these would melt my cold body.”

“No matter how you look at it, Young-Kuk says you look like someone who has been on set for decades. It was unusual from the first day, but look, if you still pretend like this, you’re pretending. Young-Kook says you seem like a much more adult than Seok-cheol!”

“No, Seonwoo hyung. Why do sparks suddenly fly in me?”

“You said you only gave me three stoves.”

“Everyone, please stop and eat this as it cooks quickly. Please eat one by one and cheer up today. There is a saying that cooking is the power of a nation. There are plenty of portions, so if you are hungry, eat more. I also separately ordered cold weather parkas for the filming team to wear. So, don’t worry about it this winter!”

At those words, assistant director Kim Seok-cheol stops eating sweet potatoes and opens his mouth wide.

“Yeok-guk, is that really why you asked me to find out the sizes of the filming team’s clothes the other day?”

Yeong-guk silently smiles faintly. It looks like it’s made. I know how hard the filming team goes through on set. I know their hard work, so it wasn’t a waste to do something like this. After all,

what’s the point of making money? I should use it in times like this. At that moment, the cinematographer put half of the roasted sweet potato in his mouth. At the door, they clap their hands and shout,

“Everyone applaud for Actor Jang!”

* * *

Actor Kim Hyeong-seop feels the warmth as soon as he arrives at the filming site. I’m not talking about the weather. It’s the unique atmosphere of the filming site. That’s what I’m saying. Preparing for filming from the dawn of dawn is a series of hardships. However, the smiles never leave the faces of the filming team. It’s hard not to notice that among them is a new actor named Jang Young-guk.

“You said that, right?”

he asked the manager early in the morning. Kim Hyeong-seop’s expression brightens as he listens to the story that happened at the filming site. It’s truly amazing. It is said that the atmosphere of the filming site is led by the main actor. However, it is not easy for new actors to play that role.

Anyway, take care of your own food. Isn’t it a difficult time? It is impossible to liven up the atmosphere with appropriate behavior and speaking skills at a filming site where various people gather together without a certain level of experience.

‘The more I see a young person, the more amazing he is.’

Although he is a new actor who became a teen star through a drama, he is not seen as arrogant or conceited. Moreover, seeing him not shy away from difficult situations and getting along with the staff like a family, all you can say is that he is truly amazing.

As usual, shining stars . It’s quite a contrast to the sight of him with a blood band on his neck and not getting out of the car until filming starts. What’s more, what about his acting?

‘Would I have been able to do that much when I was 18?’

Kim Hyeong-seop shook his head inwardly. He was at an age where he didn’t know anything. He hadn’t even been able to take on a proper role in a play, let alone act. However, a new actor named Jang Yeong-guk not only played the lead role, but he was also satisfied with Kim Hyeong-seop’s own eyes. He shows off worthy acting. Moreover, he even moves the level of immersion in the role freely, like turning a switch on and off. The

more immersive the role, the more difficult it is to escape, but he overcomes it as easily as jumping over a wall. Where on earth can you get that kind of experience? Was it possible? Amidst the question boiling from deep inside,

‘Why don’t you try it?’

Actor Kim Hyeong-seop flashes a mischievous smile.

“Scene number 21: The bishop and the young priest—!”

Two people dressed in black clothes are walking together in a parish where autumn leaves have fallen. The old priest. (Kim Hyeong-seop) looks at the young priest (England) and congratulates him in a gentle voice:

“I am so glad that Father Matthew has come to our diocese as an assistant priest. Did you have a hard time in seminary? There are more than one hardships that come with living as a deacon before being ordained. Back when I was a child, I was not even allowed to go out until I was in the fourth grade. “If you have any questions about the administration of the sacraments or any duties you don’t know, feel free to ask.” “

Bishop James, there is something I haven’t been able to answer so far.

May I ask you that?” “Of course.”

“What do you think sin is? .”

It is no coincidence that the young priest was assigned to the diocese where Bishop James is located. It is also something he longed for. Isn’t he a wicked man who embraces the last of the seven sins mentioned in the Bible? Although he deceives believers with a sad smile and a gentle voice, He is clearly guilty of greed:

“Has not the Lord said, ‘Repent, and I will forgive you all your sins? Even if you are a wicked person, if you sincerely repent and pray, wouldn’t your sins be forgiven in the end? There is no such thing as eternal evil.”

This scene shows that the paths of the young priest Matthew and Bishop James are different. The two walk through a diocese with autumn leaves in silence. The cross on the spire of the cathedral is reflected above their fluttering black skirts. .

No one knows whether sins will be condemned or whether they will be forgiven as James said. Only he at the foot of the cross knows. It was then.

“Father Matthew, what do you think when you see that cat?”

Just as I was passing through the parish. A stray cat is seen walking around. It is unclear whether the limping figure was from a car accident or was born deformed. Director Shin Seong-hyun looks up in surprise as he faces the tall screen. Is this not a sudden ad-lib from

Kim Hyeong-seop? . It was a line that wasn’t even discussed, so I was about to shout NG.

“You seem free.”

“Aren’t you pitiful?”

“How can I decide what is pitiful? He may have been deformed from birth, right? What you see isn’t everything. The same goes for sin. How can we judge the forgiveness of sins solely by looking at the prayers of the wicked? Isn’t it also said in the Bible?”

Actor Kim Hyeong-seop was barely able to swallow his surprise. The thought of ‘Look at this guy’ came to mind. Although he was understandably embarrassed by the sudden ad-lib, the rookie actor responded by fighting back as if he had been waiting. Moreover,

the depth of the line is not easy, so it feels as if you are parroting the line of an older senior. Eventually, the young priest looks at James (Kim Hyeong-seop) in a reverent voice.

“Don’t be deceived by what you see on the outside.”