I Will Live As An Actor Chapter 62

@I will live as an actor Episode 62,

a week ago.

As the family tradition in Seoul’s wealthy villages suggests, businesses should prosper and homes should be simple, and the food on the table is simple and incongruous in a mansion.

From Hamgyeong-do style braised meat and eggplant to clam rice steamed with clams, to youngchae kimchi made by pickling the leaves of sangat. These are foods that clearly indicate the hometown of the person eating them.

“Father, you seem to be in a particularly good mood today.”

The eldest son, Kim Jeong-woo, looks at his father sitting at the head of the table.

“Cancer feels good.”

The brothers and daughter-in-law, sitting across from each other at the long table, open their eyes in surprise. Once a week, the presidents of affiliates (Chairman Dae-jin Kim’s children), who are called the sacred bones of Daejeong Group, have dinner together at Chairman Dae-jin Kim’s mansion.

Chairman Kim Dae-jin is friendly and spendthrift with others, but he is extremely harsh with his children and values frugality and frugality.

Therefore, when the daughters-in-law visited the mansion of their father-in-law (Chairman Kim Dae-jin), they would bring not only luxury clothes but also expensive earrings and necklaces.

Since it is an event to collect all the major and minor events of the affiliates during the week, there is usually a lot of ranting. It was literally a place with no cushion or anything special. But.

Chairman Kim Dae-jin seems to be in a particularly good mood today.

“I guess you enjoyed today’s round?”

“It was fun, but I lost the bet.”

“You lost the bet? Weren’t you playing round games with Director An Jong-man?”

“Not Chief Ahn. The opponent must have been formidable. I met a very serious opponent.”

At that time, Chairman Kim Dae-jin suddenly looks at his eldest son (Kim Jeong-woo) and asks.

“How old is Yoo Min (Kim Jeong-woo’s only daughter) this year?”

“I’m still 16 when I enter high school next year.”

“okay?”

At that moment, Chairman Kim Dae-jin’s second son, Kim Jeong-cheol, suddenly intervenes.

“Father, why are you only taking care of Yumin? Jinsu is also sixteen this year. He was so upset that he wanted to see his grandfather that he barely let me know that he would come with me. Now, father, please take care of the eldest son of the family as well. Later, after Yumin gets married, “Is there anyone other than Jinsu who can maintain our family?”

“No, brother, what does that mean? If someone who doesn’t know them hears it, they will think that our family has only one grandson, Jinsu. Did you forget that our Junhyuk and Junsu are boys?”

“Jeongsu (Chairman Daejin Kim’s third child), you are interrupting your brother while he is talking. What do you expect from children who have just started walking? Do they have to grow up to be able to rub against Jinsu?”

“What? Is that what you’re going to say to your nephews now?”

“Everyone stop!”

Chairman Kim Dae-jin puts down his chopsticks loudly and shouts. Only then did everyone at the table look at each other as if they were all in a group.

“Jeong-cheol (second son), you say the department store will be in the red again this year? I’ve told you several times not to forcefully expand the business with a plan that doesn’t work. How are you going to run the company just by listening to the advice of treacherous executives? What if the situation is the same next year? “You know how to take it back!”

“father!”

“I’m not done talking yet. Jeong Soo (third): These days, the media industry is booming, so you seem to be earning quite a lot of money. But that’s right. Media companies need to be transparent. If they make money by providing advertising-rich news and helping others, that’s fine. “Are you a media company or a subcontractor? I’ve told you several times not to obscure the essence of the company!”

When Chairman Kim Dae-jin flashes his tiger-like eyes, the second son and third son bow their heads. In the end, the dinner table is once again a disaster. The evening ends when Chairman Kim Dae-jin gets up from his seat.

Everyone ran out of the mansion in fear of being yelled at again. Except for one person, the eldest son, Kim Jeong-woo.

Cigarette smoke puffs out from Chairman Kim Dae-jin’s nostrils, almost as if he is sighing.

“Jungwoo, I said I came across something interesting today.”

“Yes, you said so.”

“That guy is so clever that he doesn’t even show his faintness even in front of me. On the contrary, he tries to scam me right away, but he is so clever that I was fooled at first. But I don’t feel bad even after being fooled. In fact, it’s been a while since I’ve been like this. “I felt happy to be back on active duty again.”

At that moment, Chairman Kim Dae-jin changes his gaze again and asks.

“Why do you want to go see it with me?”

* * *

“Scene No. 45 Psalm for the Dead—!”

It is a cry that awakens thoughts. CEO Kim Jeong-woo concentrates on the filming site with the attitude of a student who once dreamed of becoming a film director. The shabby little room that no one seems to be visiting is full of mold and has an old, foul smell.

A sickly believer (supporting character) is lying on a bed that appears to have never been washed, and a priest (England) is holding his hand.

‘It’s different from what I saw before filming.’

There was a significant discrepancy between the appearance of the young man seen when he came to the filming site and the appearance of the priest in the closet. Although they look similar, it almost feels like they are different people.

The black coat is straight as if symbolizing piety, and the eyes are infinitely deep. At this moment, he appears only as a holy priest.

“Brother, why are you so thin?”

The believer lying in bed is a drug patient. Due to taking drugs for a long time, his body is completely broken and his mind is also devastated. The only thing that supported him during his long time in prison was his faith. Didn’t you rely on your faith to correct and forget your past mistakes?

Because of that, he continued to visit the parish even after he was released from prison. But will the sparrow break the mill? He dabbles in Philopon again like before.

“Why did you come to me instead of going to the hospital when something like this happened?”

“Father Shin. I mean it. It’s so cold right now. It’s so cold that I feel like I’m going crazy. I’m sick and I want to go to the hospital, but all I can think of is your face. You always listened to my stories with great care.”

In a shabby alcove, already used syringes are thrown away along with soju bottles. It’s not that I don’t go to the hospital, it’s that I can’t go. If I was caught injecting drugs, I would have to go to jail again. That’s why he looks for a priest.

Isn’t this the person who always silently listened to confessions and encouraged me? I’ve been doing things I wouldn’t want to others my whole life, but when I hold his hand, I feel like everything is forgiven.

“Father Shin. There’s some medicine left in the cupboard. Please bring me that. That’s all I need. That’s all I need!”

A drug patient (supporting actor) screams as if he is having a seizure. But my hands and feet are still shaking. The condition is so severe that the body cannot even function properly due to the withdrawal phenomenon. The priest (England) looks down at him with calm eyes.

Through the Sacrament of Reconciliation, we meet various images. While there are people who have sincere faith, there are also quite a few who use faith to cover up their sins. Will he who was crucified really forgive all of these people? This is a thought that came to mind countless times while studying theology.

Does absolution really exist?

“Please wait.”

The priest stands up and heads to the cupboard. As he said, there are syringes lying around that have not yet been used. The priest who brought it all together and held it in his hand immediately asked:

“Brother, I will let you go. I pray that you will be released from this pain once and for all.”

“Fast, fast. Fast!”

The priest prays while looking at the believer who cannot even control his body properly. There was no need to do it in Latin. Because there is no one in his room except two people. Soon, a harsh voice echoes through the room.

“You cruel one, why did you tell me the past? Was it to receive forgiveness? Or was it to cover up the past?”

The priest picks up a syringe and holds it to his throat. Obviously, since it is a bladeless syringe (prop), there should be no problem, but the supporting actor’s eyes widen. A bright smile is spreading across the face of the priest who is holding his forehead with one hand and preventing him from moving.

Medicine is administered.

However, it doesn’t stop at just one. The priest continues to administer medicine to the believer, as if he wants to use up all the syringes. The believer’s eyes become bloodshot and foam rises from the mouth. He begs for his life with his trembling body.

“Father, please take me to the hospital. Please.”

“Brother, I think it’s already too late to repent.”

The sleeves of the black suit flap. The priest grabs the neck of the struggling believer, or drug patient, and forces him to look directly into his eyes. At that moment, Jo Yeon not only got goosebumps all over her body, but also wanted to leave the filming set right away. The muscles around the eyes of the priest (England) move in detail and realign themselves again.

“I call you the first of the seven sins, and this is the only suffering you deserve, having committed the sin of lust. Your sins will come down again on the top of your head because of your past.”

The corners of the eyes are twisted violently, encompassing regret, sadness, and joy. No one can move at the filming site, as if they are already caught up in his (England) gaze. The same goes for Chairman Kim Dae-jin and CEO Kim Jeong-woo, who were watching. His eyes are clearly smiling, but his voice is full of sorrowful reverence.

“Sin will not be erased and will remain forever.”

The last syringe is plunged into the sinner’s heart.

The composition creates a contrast between the Bible scattered on the floor of the room and the priest. A faint whistling sound is heard, as if to awaken the silence.

The whistling sound is not made by him. It is a sin born of the wicked. Just as a stigma cannot be erased, sin cannot be washed away, so it is probably the last word flowing from the heart of a dying wicked person.

Even director Shin Seong-hyun swallows his saliva without shouting cut. At that moment, the priest (England) raises his head as if looking through the screen. Looking at that, CEO Kim Jeong-woo felt like this dirty alcove (filming site) was under a cross.

* * *

There is silence in the waiting room. After filming an emotionally charged scene, the staff, including the director, are so embarrassed that they do not speak to the actors.

It has been a common practice for a very long time, so no one complains even if they spend a long time in the waiting room. England sits on a chair in the waiting room and looks at the mirror.

‘Whoa.’

I sigh internally. Including his past life, he has an acting career that is comparable to that of most middle-aged actors, but it is still difficult to get out of the script. Still, it is better than my past life.

In my past life, when I was crazy about acting, I was so absorbed in the script that it felt like I was stuck in a swamp, so I had a hard time shaking off the remaining emotions after the show ended.

Saaaaa!

England picked up a bottle of water and poured it over his head. There was no problem as I had already taken off my black clothes and put on simple clothes. It is a habit that has been carried over from my past life. After filming a scene where emotions were maximized, I got a lot of complaints from the makeup team and stylist because I kept my hair cool as if to capture it.

In the past, this wasn’t enough to relieve my emotions, but now it’s different. At the time, I was always isolated and alone, but now there are many people by my side.

“Ugh, it’s cool.”

Perhaps because it was bottled water in the refrigerator, it was so refreshing that it made my bones feel bitter. Thanks to this, I was able to shake off the emotions I felt at the filming site. I was picking up a towel, shaking off my hair, and wiping away the water stains on my face.

“England?”

Manager Lee Bong-chun enters the waiting room, stops and asks.

“Did you really cry?”

“It was too hot to cry, so I just needed to cool off.”

Manager Lee Bong-chun is relieved when England shows him an empty water bottle. He elaborates on a story he heard at the filming site just moments ago.

“Chairman Kim Dae-jin just left first. It looks like he didn’t even say hello on purpose because he was worried you might have complicated feelings. Instead, CEO Kim Jeong-woo is offering a treat for today’s after-party?”

“Really?”

“Yes, not only the filming team, but also all the actors and minor characters who are not filming today can be invited, so the filming site is in a very festive mood right now.” It’s

a side game, so it’s a big deal. This is big.

* * *

Just as it would be bad to not have alcohol while working hard, the same goes for the filming site. Drinking parties were often held to soothe the day’s hard work. Moreover, today there is water to drink, so who can refuse it?

“Shin Shin Director, no, Shin hyung. Why are you so sad from now on? Today’s training ended well. And the problem I was struggling with has been resolved. I feel like I lost a tooth I was sick of!”

“Seok Cheol-ah (assistant director)! Come here and have another drink! Seon-woo (lighting director) is already addicted to alcohol, and I can’t talk to Shin because it’s not fun.”

“Senior Park, I’m running now!”

Didn’t they rent an entire bar? Thanks to that, there was a lot of fun for drinkers. The assistant director and the cinematographer are already tongue-tied, and the youngest members are already very drunk and their faces are red. Among them, only director Shin Seong-hyun, who does not drink, is maintaining his sanity. ‘Huh, I

never thought it would be resolved like this. .’

The problem with the distributor that he had tried so hard to solve was solved by the actor, not the filming team. Of course, CEO Kim Jeong-woo did not tell us the actual reason, but it was like that if you look at the situation. He asked

the chairman of Daejeong Group and the head of Daejeong Distribution to look at the actor (England). Since there are almost no cases where representatives arrive at the same time, director Shin Seong-hyeon sees two people sitting at a distance. They are CEO Kim Jeong-woo and actor Jang Young-guk.

Perhaps out of consideration for England, who is a minor, CEO Kim Jeong-woo also does not take a sip of alcohol. Instead, We chatted non-stop, as if we were drinking together.

The problems of the film industry.

“I listened closely to the problems of the film industry that Actor Jang told my father.”

“Haha, it was just my personal opinion. Don’t take it too seriously.”

“No, I was really impressed.”

CEO Kim Jeong-woo was amazed at the young man’s insight. When he first heard about what happened in the clubhouse sauna from his father in the study, he was a bit cocky. I thought so, but after reflecting on the meaning for a week, I found out that it was actually true in every detail, so I felt bad and had nothing to say.

‘I said I was 18 years old.’

Even though he is only two years older than his only daughter, the young man (England) has extraordinary insight and knowledge. If he is second to none when it comes to looking at people, would his sad father be interested in him? ‘Vertical

‘ The integrated structure of the film industry increases the market’s expansion, but it can degenerate into a monopoly. As a result, a ship with a lone sailor stops moving rather than moving forward.’

It’s a future I’ve never imagined.

“Could you tell me a little more about the problems in the film industry? I’ve organized this after-party today, so I’m sure you’ll be willing to tell me this much, right?”

Looking at CEO Kim Jeong-woo’s serious eyes, he said, In the end, he nods his head. Anyway, since he confirmed that he will double the promotional investment, we have no choice but to provide this level of service.

“First of all, I think the film industry is developing very rapidly. Although it is called a high-risk, high-reward industry, it is also a one-source multiuse industry. It is an industry with many merits. However, as there are many benefits, there are also side effects. An example of this is a vertically integrated structure.”

“Why do you think it causes side effects? “This is a method that has already been used in Hollywood.”

“Sir, this is Korea, not the United States. “The method used in the U.S. is that the pie is so large that there is a lot to share, but in Korea it is small.”

CEO Kim Jeong-woo once again swallows his admiration.

There are two reasons why he chose to become a distributor among the many affiliates of Daejeong Group. First of all,

he was a film student who dreamed of becoming a film director, and secondly, he saw the future of the film industry very positively. Film is changing faster than the saying that even the most powerful mountains can change in ten years. It is an industry. Production costs, which hovered around 1 billion a few years ago, are now approaching 2 billion.

Moreover, profits do not simply end with the theater sales of a single movie, but are also used in multiple sources, including DVDs, TVs, cables, and even overseas exports. (onesource multiuse) will gradually expand its scope.

Underlying all of this

is the conviction that Korean films will make strong progress in the future.

But there was an actor who was already thinking this.

‘Is he really 18 years old?’

It’s almost questionable. His extensive knowledge of the film industry is no less than his own. However, the immaturity he sometimes shows is that of a high school student. Just like now.

“CEO, can I order one more snack? Hehe.”

In return for not being able to drink alcohol, England picks up a chicken leg without hesitation, perhaps with the intention of filling his stomach with a snack. Seeing that, CEO Kim Jeong-woo thinks a lot.

‘Did I make a mistake?’

Vertical integration (integration of production, distribution, and screening) in the film industry is an industrial structure that started early in Hollywood. Therefore, Daejeong Distribution, which is no different from a latecomer, had no choice but to cultivate the industry by using foreign direct distributors as role models, but the side effects that arise from this are unexpected.

Think about it . If you look at it, it was too conceited. If you think about it a little, you can understand this. After all, the land of Korea is small enough to be compared to a state in the United States.

“Actor Jang will have a bright future at the center of the film industry. Do you want to try smoking?”

“You’re still acting right now?”

“No, I’m not saying acting, but do you want to do business? If you have this level of insight at such a young age, your future is promising. Just as my father told me, I am also saying this because I also desire Actor Jang.”

“CEO, I am still a student. And.”

England gives a natural smile. I know the future, but I don’t think I can use it well. Knowing and using it are two different things. There are different people who can live as businessmen.

“England! ”

At that moment, the cinematographer approaches, holding a beer glass, like a drunken man approaches.

“Director Ai. Why did you drink like this?”

“I came because I missed you. Oh my. “I apologize, CEO.”

“Haha, it’s okay. It’s a place where we can all have fun together. “I was setting the tone too much, right?”

“That’s right. Now, everyone applauds the CEO who created this event today!”

The smell of alcohol stings my nose, wondering how much I’ve had. England responds while holding onto the shoulders of the cinematographer. CEO Kim Jeong-woo smiles faintly at that sight. It looks like he made it up. I couldn’t hear the answer, but I can tell.

That man

will make a living as an actor.