Episode 308:
I was nervous about meeting a self-proclaimed god.
He wanted to invite me into the world he had built, and of course I had no intention of meekly setting foot in his home base.
In the end, it was I who followed through. I decided to connect the self-proclaimed god with the world of images and view it from a neutral ground.
Are you trying to show that you aren’t scared?
Apart from the initial negotiation process, they were cooperating surprisingly obediently.
That was when our two mental worlds were connected.
[Let’s get rid of uninvited guests.]
A heavy voice that disturbed my mind and body rang out, and Yongyong, who had been quietly sitting next to me until then, began to be pushed away.
[uh? Wait a minute…!]
Paaaaa!
Yongyong screamed, but was helplessly thrown away by the self-proclaimed god’s push.
I didn’t even bother holding on.
Then Yongyong clung to me.
[Help me too!]
“Why me?”
[hey! You are betraying this…!]
“Goodbye.”
[Arch!]
Pot!
[….]
Yongyong, who left behind a single scream, was thrown away, leaving only me and the self-proclaimed god in the world of images.
It was engulfed in a dazzling brilliance that seemed to blind one’s eyes, and the appearance that emerged was sacred, grotesque, intimidating, and destructive.
Should I say that it is beyond imagination?
When I was a hematologist, there was a guy who carried around a Bible, saying it would absolve him of his sins.
I read the Bible, which was new at first, until it was worn out. There was a time when I was so mad that he attacked me and twisted my neck while reading the Bible, and I remember being impressed by the description of the angel that was different from what I had imagined.
It was different from that, but just looking at it, it seemed like a believable imitation of God. Through the brilliance, huge eyes were scanning me as if trying to see through my inner thoughts.
Yongyong’s appearance is different from what he said.
He told me that he was a self-proclaimed god in human form. Was that a made-up appearance? No, the human appearance and that appearance were all lies.
Considering what I have seen and heard so far, the self-proclaimed god is very cautious, secretive, and cunning.
People who don’t know may be so overwhelmed by his force that they might think he’s a god.
Huge eyes turned to me.
[Do not be afraid.]
Who is afraid of whom?
[Be in awe.]
The voice echoing in my head was trying to interfere with me by creating subtle waves. If you are caught up in the fear of God and its waves, you will succumb to it, but to me, this is out of the question.
I am not denying the existence of God.
I rather believe in God.
If God didn’t exist, there would be no reason for me to return to the past.
When I meet God, I want to say something. Thank you for helping me correct my regrets. Thank you for bringing me back to my senses.
More than anything.
Wouldn’t it be better if God existed? I was curious about the final screams of those who pretended to be noble when they extorted more than they gave.
Of course, if it were the god who sent me back, I would be willing to take a look at it at least once.
However, it is clear that the guy in front of me is not that god.
“Let’s stop talking nonsense.”
[….]
“Did you think I would treat you like a god in front of me?”
[…Why did you ask to see me? I’m human.]
Now I’ve finally thrown away the act of being a god.
I didn’t see it as a reason to say I would deal with him, either. Of course, like the Thunderbird, there are aspects of it that I dislike quite a bit, but it has never directly conflicted with me.
I’m not as crazy as a hematoma, and there’s no reason to go on a rampage to kill a guy who’s sitting still.
The reason I asked to see you today is simply because I wanted to check a few things.
No matter how long he followed me around, I can’t believe everything Yongyong says.
“I have a few questions.”
[…What a nasty human being. Did you just invite me to ask a question?]
“Then are you going to ask me to serve you?”
[Ask a question.]
As I faced the giant eyes, I asked about the mystery of the divine beast that Yongyong had talked about.
[Disappearing awe means being able to fight back.]
“Can’t you speak easier?”
[….]
Anyway, what Yongyong said is true.
The story goes that the power of the divine beast comes from mystery. And looking at the fact that he completely hid his own existence and promoted the existence of God, I could tell that his actions were meticulous.
It maintains its own mystery and creates mystery with something else.
I think this guy is more cunning than the Thunderbird.
“Do you know any other divine beasts?”
[I don’t need to tell you that.]
I can’t read what this is thinking. Like a guy who dug his own nest and hid, he didn’t give out information easily. At times like this, I almost miss Yongyong.
It’s strange that a guy like that obediently responds to conversation.
I asked a few more trivial questions and then moved on to the last question.
This was the part I was most curious about.
“What is the intention of creating a new mystery by presenting it as the existence of God?”
[Stop asking questions. Now it’s my turn to ask a question.]
He didn’t answer, but I could tell that there was an invisible thief.
[Now I ask.] I guess
he had questions of his own, so he answered some of my questions obediently.
Should I end the conversation here without answering?
No, from what I have experienced, the divine beasts are strangely arrogant. If I match it appropriately, I might be able to get what I need.
Now that I think about it, the guy who calls himself a god seems strangely friendly, just because he responded so obediently.
I’m not sure why that is.
“What?”
[I can make you a god.]
“God?”
Is this the sound of banging on a drum in your sleep?
[Take my hand.]
“….”
So is that guy saying he will make me a god? So you thought I would accept it?
I am God. It was a ridiculous sound. Perhaps his mistake was that he thought that since other people were excited, I would also be excited and rush to him.
The existence called God.
It was a challenge that made me want to break my neck, not that I wanted to be in that position.
And it’s ridiculous to trust him in the first place.
“I refuse.”
[Humans persist even though they know they will regret it. My suggestion is not to just anyone.]
“But I still don’t like it.”
[….]
“This is the end of the story. “It was fun.”
I wanted to try my hand at seeing how strong he was, but when I saw his condition, I thought it would be impossible. Although they were connected to the world of images and faced each other, the conditions were equal, but the true nature was completely hidden.
It was to the point where I couldn’t even guess what kind of divine beast this guy was. Besides, he answered my questions obediently, so I decided not to bother with him here.
I didn’t mean to die in the first place.
After declaring pato and ending the connection to the mental world, I quickly returned to reality.
[Why are you letting me out? It’s him, right? Did he send it out?]
Yongyong was circling around, his mind going wild. I asked him to talk to me later and then turned my attention to the saint.
The saintess looked clearly surprised. Half of my clothes are falling down and I can’t even think of fixing them.
If you pour Amekirano, which is said to be a scum of the earth, into your mouth, you will come to your senses.
I had the urge to give it a try, but decided to resist.
“why?”
“…I never thought I would truly answer your call. “I don’t know what he was thinking.”
“Nothing much. The meeting took place because we both had questions. “God also had something he wanted to say to me, so I agreed to it.”
Despite that, I didn’t respond right away, but when people asked me if I was scared, I did jump out.
I think it was an action to show that I wasn’t scared of anything complicated.
It seems surprisingly likely, doesn’t it?
“….”
“Why?”
“it’s nothing.”
It’s bland. As I watched the saintess turn her head, I sensed a strange sense of strangeness. Now that I think about it, the saint’s current state is similar to that of a god’s host.
It’s the behavior of a guy who is extremely careful not to reveal his existence, but on the contrary, if that string is cut, he will have to go a very long way.
If you cut this string, the main body might pop out.
The link between a self-proclaimed god and a saint caught my eye.
“If the.”
“yes?”
“If you ever have doubts about God or can no longer believe in God, come to me. “I might be able to do something helpful for you then.”
The saintess’s expression became cold. He looks angrier than when I poured the espresso earlier. You’re really angry.
“That won’t happen.”
“Because you don’t know what’s going on in the world. There is no law that says faith is the same 24 hours a day, 168 hours a week. What I’m saying is, consider it as an option for you. “I hope you think of it as a gift for my sudden visit today.”
“I said that wouldn’t happen.”
Eventually, the voice became sharper.
I had no intention of provoking him any further, so I chose to take a step back.
“If you change your mind, tell me. And put some clothes on.”
After hearing what I said, the saint made no move even after seeing her clothes.
Instead, he raised his eyes at me and shouted.
“If this is the case, do you have any plans to do anything else? “If you don’t have that, stop pointing it out and disappear.”
“….”
“If you have a dark side, at least try your hand at it!”
“….”
[You took a hit?]
Next to me, Yongyong giggled happily.
* * *
After parting ways with the saint, I was planning to return to Seoul right away, but I changed my plans and decided to stay in Rome.
There was a downside to high-speed flight that I wasn’t aware of, and that was that it caused considerable fatigue not only physically but also mentally.
Even with the help of Gift Self, the one-day itinerary from Seoul to Berlin to Rome was arduous.
So, I visited the Embassy of the Republic of Korea in Italy and felt indebted to them. I also asked Yongyong to talk to me tomorrow.
[I can’t help it.]
When I woke up after a day’s rest, I received an unexpected invitation. I wonder how the ambassador to Saudi Arabia came to visit.
He delivered me a personal letter from King Ahmed.
-If you are not busy, I would like you to visit Riyadh, my friend.
They say the reason for inviting me is to discuss business, but since I’m on my way, there’s nothing I can’t do.
As the next destination was decided to be Saudi Arabia, Yongyong whined next to me, saying that he was not responding.
[So when are you going to start talking to me?]
First, I have to deal with Yongyong, who is whining.
“What are you so curious about?”
[I heard you met God? I’m curious about what we talked about.]
I looked at the self-proclaimed god and when I saw Yongyong, I thought he was transparent. This is a charm that cannot be hated.
It’s so easy that you can keep sucking it next to you.
I guess this is mutual aid.
[You’re not going to talk?]
Look at this guy?
I didn’t want to say more because I was so hung up on it.
I’m going to be a little grumpy.
“Now that I think about it, why should I tell you?”
[What?]
“I don’t know why I have to tell you what I talked to that guy.”
Could you tell me why I should talk?
Sure enough, Yongyong was upset.
[Uh, so… it will be more helpful to the world and we can respond even if you act unexpectedly…]
“What can I do about that?”
[Miss, what do you want? “Tell me what you want.]
“Your claws.”
[what? Why is that suddenly happening?]
“I guess it’s useful because it’s the divine beast’s claw. “I want to secure it in advance.”
[and! Is this really like this?]
“It’s about making a fair deal. “If you think it’s unfair, you reject it.”
[….]
Yongyong wriggled and clearly showed that he was not satisfied.
However, it was I who took the initiative and Yongyong who was curious.
Yongyong, who was overcome with worry, soon raised the white flag.
[okay! I’ll give! How many do you want?]
“Give me five and I’ll tell you what I asked.”
[…It hurts to pull out my toenails. okay. Five is enough, right?]
“Yes.”
Negotiations were concluded.
Although Yongyong had his claws ripped off by me, his expression was not that dark.
[Surprising? I thought you were going to ask me to pay more.]
Yongyong looked quite surprised by my cool deal.
I can only be surprised by this much.
There’s no way this is going to end.
“Then shall we negotiate by telling the self-proclaimed god what he asked of me?”
[What what?]
“Jesse.”