Episode 192
She was still smiling.
She nodded, looking like she knew what question I was going to ask.
I was somewhat confident in her words and actions.
she knows
The reason I came into the novel.
Why was I chosen?
Wouldn’t she be able to answer my questions?
“Hey…”
-Aren’t you happy now?
“yes?”
-That’s right. Here you can achieve everything. If only I had the strength.
What does this mean?
Is that what you call it? Are you happy now?
‘It’s not enjoyable at all.’
Yes, I admit that I have changed.
I have gained confidence and it seems to me that I am doing well.
But then?
What does that mean?
‘It ends when you die anyway. Then what’s the use of it?’
Are you happy? It is fun.
I was happy to see myself changing every day, and I liked what I could achieve for the effort I put in.
When I saw myself changing, I wondered if I had ever been like this.
But no matter how good and enjoyable it is.
I was afraid that I might die.
It’s still the same now.
I moved to survive, but wherever I went was full of danger.
But how can we say that it is just fun?
Nevertheless, the reason I move is because I can only survive if I become stronger.
-Is that so…
The World Tree mutters softly.
A strangely sad voice.
She spoke as if she heard what I was thinking without saying it out loud.
-But you didn’t have many opportunities?
“…?”
-There is a transcendent person next to you. It’s so powerful that even I can’t handle it now. And even now, there is a coordinator by my side. Are you still afraid?
That’s… if you put it that way, there’s nothing left to say.
Certainly, as she said, I had many opportunities.
Here, my father is one of the greatest wizards on the continent.
It is powerful enough to take on an army alone.
If I had asked him, even if I couldn’t tell him everything, wouldn’t he have listened to my request?
No matter how ugly it is, they say it is his son’s wish.
That wasn’t all.
The Mercenary King is willing to accept me as his successor, and the Warrug Count has favor with me.
If I had asked one of them to kill him for me, I would be his heir.
Wouldn’t the work have been completed without me having to worry about this?
-There were many opportunities. It could have been solved without you having to try so hard.
-But you didn’t do that. He said he would solve it on his own and did not ask for it.
-I threw away the opportunity with the excuse that I couldn’t tell them.
-It would be meaningless to ask them now. He is currently preparing to be born. Now, even if transcendental people come forward, we don’t know what will happen.
The World Tree speaks as if it is reprimanding me.
If I had thought a little more carefully and made a move, things wouldn’t have gotten this big.
I couldn’t deny what she said.
Because it was true.
-There is a high probability that it is your fault that the matter has escalated like this. If you had stayed still, he wouldn’t have become this strong in such a short period of time.
I lowered my head.
I thought I did something wrong.
Because of my lack of caution.
As I was blaming myself and blaming myself, I suddenly felt strange.
I’m not saying anything.
‘How on earth do you know what happened to me? ‘How do we communicate?’
I looked at the World Tree.
Did you do some trick to me?
The face of the World Tree, which was thought to be smiling, did not contain any emotion.
The moment I saw that face, I started hearing sounds around me.
-…Human, come to your senses!
The hatchling was shaking my body.
He pulled my hair and screamed into my ear.
I could finally hear the sound.
He grabbed the head of the screaming hatchling and dropped it.
“Noisy.”
-Have you gained human spirit?
“uh. “It’s okay now.”
I said it was okay, but it wasn’t really that good.
I felt dizzy, as if I had taken cold medicine.
My vision was slightly blurred.
I held my head throbbing and circulated the aura throughout my body.
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa at something?
Something came out of my body.
The aurors pushed out the things that had infiltrated the body.
It was pollen. Pollen mixed with pink and purple.
Only after the auror passed through my blood did my head become clear.
My blurred vision became clear.
“Oh shit.”
I was hit.
When I thought that the hatchling was with me, I thought it had a ‘good’ tendency and did not question the World Tree.
So, without even realizing it, I was relaxing.
The result was this.
I was possessed by the World Tree in an instant.
So secretly that even I, whose senses have become super-sensitive, can’t even feel it.
Or maybe it was because my senses were so sensitive that I got caught up easily.
“What are you doing now?”
I stare at the World Tree.
Of course, there was no way the words could come out nicely.
I felt like I was being played.
I was possessed by the World Tree and blamed myself again and again.
At one point, I was deeply blaming myself without even realizing it.
-….
The world tree that had been pushing me so hard closed its mouth as if embarrassed.
He looked at me with an expression of disbelief.
-You resisted my energy? This is not an easy task even for a dragon.
The World Tree takes a step back. Her shaking eyes turn to the hatchling.
She glared at the hatchling as if asking if she had helped her, then shook her head as if that couldn’t have been possible.
-No matter how much it is a dragon, it is a hatchling so there is no way it would be possible. I got out of this on my own.
All the hatchling did was shake me and yell.
It was entirely my will to escape the World Tree’s tricks.
“I feel really dirty.”
I slowly became irritated at the sight of her busy saying what she wanted to say without even replying to what I said.
I helped her, but she wants to become my enemy even though she can’t repay the favor to her benefactor.
Did they bring me in just to do something like this?
If that’s the case, I’m really upset.
I felt stupid for even listening to what she said.
“Is this how they usually repay favors here?”
-…sorry.
“I’m not doing this just to hear an apology. “You’re asking why I did something like that.”
It’s a situation where words can’t come out nicely.
If I had done something wrong, I could have lost my personality.
Just by not picking up the name and attacking him right away, he was maintaining great patience.
-I couldn’t help it either.
“Stop talking bullshit.”
I was dumbfounded by the excuse that there was nothing I could do.
I just didn’t want to hear that kind of excuse.
I want to know the reason why it couldn’t be helped.
Why did you do this shit to me?
“say. “For what reason did you try to bewitch me?”
It wasn’t just that I was possessed.
He secretly and cleverly brought up the things that had been encroaching inside me and made me possessed without even feeling it.
Shaken by those emotions, I made myself feel the worst about being a human being.
This was a problem that could never be taken lightly.
“I won’t leave you alone if you tell me such bullshit that I couldn’t help it or that I did it to figure out who you are.”
-….
The world tree must have been about to say one of the things I said, but it kept its mouth shut.
“Tell me.”
I grabbed the name and glared at her.
If there is even the slightest delay in answering, I will immediately slit her throat.
Even if it is a world tree, it will not be without damage.
If she doesn’t answer properly, I won’t leave her alone.
-I needed to know who you were.
I think I definitely told you not to say that.
I didn’t listen to the end and swung the cotton.
Time passes slowly.
Nameless sticks out his sharp teeth towards her neck.
As time was getting slower, she raised her head and looked at me.
-Because this world could disappear because of you.
Stand tall. The unknown stops at the corner of her neck.
Blood trickles down from her neck.
The blood flowing from her neck soaks her clothes, like red paint on pure white drawing paper.
Was it my will to stop being anonymous?
Or is it her strength?
I was planning to slit her throat, but her next words stopped my arm.
It felt like someone was holding my hand.
A touch filled with irresistible power.
I looked around, but other than the World Tree and the hatchling, I couldn’t find anyone else.
“What do you mean?”
– That’s literally it. Because of you, this world can disappear.
Even though the sword touched her neck, she spoke calmly.
As she moved her jaw, the name dug deeper into her flesh.
“Tsk.”
I clicked my tongue and lowered my name.
I didn’t know if she was doing this for no reason at all, but it was difficult to hastily do something when she said it seemed like there was an important reason.
It seems like something I really need to hear.
“What do you mean, I’m making the world disappear?”
-You are a being outside the framework of this world. To put it simply, we are an entity outside of standards, with the entire world reacting to even one small action. I think you know why.
“Hmm…”
There is something to be pointed out.
That I know the future of this world.
That is why the predetermined future changes.
I was so stingy that I hesitated for a moment about what to say.
-I apologize for my mistakes. I wanted to get to know you. I wanted to see if you were worthy to carry the future of this world.
“….”
-You can hate me like this. You must be angry. I know. What a piece of trash I have been. I don’t ask you to understand. However…
“That’s enough. “I think I know roughly what you’re talking about.”
I cut her off.
My thoughts were complicated, but I felt like I knew why she was like that.
She was worried about this world.
I wonder what I will do with the world she lives in.
It certainly wasn’t a good thing for him to touch me because of that, but I couldn’t just blame him either.
I would have done the same if it were me.
‘How many people can entrust their lives to others?’
If you have to leave it to someone you’ve never met before, you have no choice but to move to get to know that person.
Move to survive.
The method was different, but it was similar to mine.
“But I saved you. “No matter how much you are the world tree, you won’t be able to get out of that situation.”
-you’re right. At that time, I was in a state of complete loss of strength, and the demonic ore called bloodstone was clinging to me and taking away my strength.
‘Ore from the Demon World? Was bloodstone a demonic substance of legend?’
I learned something new.
This world was a world where Elyos and Demons existed only in legends.
Even dragons appear once in a thousand years, and it is difficult to encounter demons or elyos with even slimmer odds than that.
But I had that thing from the demon world.
-It’s late, but I sincerely thank you for saving me.