Episode 193:
I was at a loss for words due to the sudden change in the world tree’s emotions.
After pushing me, she shed tears and now even apologized.
I had no idea which beat to go to.
‘Now… I don’t know.’
I even start to get confused about whether saving the World Tree was a good thing.
I didn’t take the risk of being threatened by barbarians just to be treated like this.
“all good. “I know you wanted to recognize me, and I know you were worried about me.”
-….
“But that doesn’t mean we can just ignore this.”
I was attacked without even receiving a proper explanation, but if I let this go, I wouldn’t be a human being.
At least he should have been compensated.
“I’m feeling pretty bad right now. So I just can’t go back.”
-…What do you want?
“What can you give me?”
The World Tree fell silent at my words.
She wondered if it was difficult to answer right away.
I decided to ease her worries.
“There are two things I want. “One thing is information… and the second is a way for me to become stronger.”
-Uhm….
The World Tree was fiddling with the teacup.
Is this such a difficult proposition?
Considering what she did to me, I don’t think it’s that difficult.
Didn’t you just say it as if you knew everything about me?
If you have that much confidence, I think you can fully answer my questions.
-I understand that I am getting stronger. But what kind of information do you want?
He shrugged his shoulders and said, ignoring her question.
“It’s simple. The reason I came to this world. “I want to know that.”
-Hmm….
She muttered as if she was in trouble.
She looked at me as if asking me why she was asking that question, then sighed and opened her mouth.
-Because you were chosen.
“So the reason you chose me…”
– I can’t tell you anything else than that. Even if you say it, you won’t understand.
“what?”
-●■ ◇▷!
I frowned.
A terrible sound stung my ears.
sick. My head throbbed and something warm flowed from my ears as if my eardrums had burst.
I frowned and covered my ears, and she looked at me with a dark face and closed her mouth.
As soon as I did that, the sound that had been bothering me disappeared along with it.
“Just… what was that?”
My burst eardrum regenerated and I frowned at my still throbbing head.
I felt sick.
-It is a constraint. The world moved because you heard things that shouldn’t have been heard.
How big is the scale?
The world moves just to stop you from saying a few words.
It was hard to believe it because it was so absurd.
However, the pain I experienced was still vivid enough to not believe it.
‘I can’t help but believe this… it’s driving me crazy.’
I couldn’t ask the most important thing.
Honestly, the thing I was most curious about was why I came here, but I couldn’t get the answer.
“Then why was I chosen?”
-As I just said, I can’t tell you that. Still, if you’re curious, all I can say is that no one can know that. Only he knows.
If it’s obvious, then it’s an obvious answer.
It wasn’t the answer I wanted, but I couldn’t read her inner thoughts, so I had no choice but to trust her.
It’s unfortunate, but it can’t be helped.
“What is that choice?”
– That’s literally it. Creator of the world. It means that you have been chosen by him.
“There is no need for the opinions of the parties involved in that choice?”
-That’s….
The world tree closes its mouth.
He said he could not answer in that regard and simply repeated that he was sorry.
“Okay, everything is good, this is it. I don’t know why I was chosen, I don’t know why they chose me… Yeah. I understand. So what should I do? “You’re not going to say that you don’t even know that, right?”
If that were the case, I would be quite angry.
I don’t know what I would do here if you didn’t even tell me what to do.
Maybe it could go in a bad direction.
There must be a reason why I came here, but if you don’t tell me any purpose, it’s just trash.
Couldn’t you at least tell me your goal or purpose?
-You just have to do it like you do now.
“….”
Like now, like now….
There is no word as irritating as “like now.”
Anything else is the next thing I don’t want to hear.
What on earth does it mean to be like that now?
What did I do that makes you want to do it now?
Oh, are you talking about me voluntarily putting myself in danger?
If that’s the case… I think it would be ridiculous.
I feel like I will lose more motivation than I do now.
-You are doing well now. At least, if what I saw and heard is correct, then yes. That’s right.
What on earth did you see and hear?
I can’t be angry about this. I just sigh.
It’s like talking to the wall.
It wouldn’t be more frustrating to have a conversation with a doll that only says what it wants to say without giving me the answer I want.
“I don’t like being passed over. “It’s annoying to see things being overlooked like that.”
I took a deep breath.
I tried to control my anger so as not to yell.
Perhaps because of the pain I had felt earlier, my nerves had become extremely sensitive.
No matter how high your regenerative power is, it doesn’t mean you don’t feel pain.
And the pain I felt was the kind of pain filled with frustration that pushes people to their limits.
I was putting in a lot of effort just not to raise my voice right away.
“Say it properly. That’s exactly what it is like now. “What should I do?”
-Hmm….
Did he feel my anger?
She didn’t say anything. Her brows furrowed, as if she was being careful about what she said.
-The chosen one….
“Just call me Raymond. “There’s no need to say it in such a big way.”
-ah. All right. Raymond, what do you think the path you have walked is like?
What kind of pun is this again?
I narrowed my eyes at her question, which had nothing to do with what I was asking.
She continued speaking without paying attention to the look in my eyes.
– I think your path has been difficult. You walked a path you didn’t need to walk.
“So does that matter?”
-no. I think you are amazing for walking that path. Because there are people whose lives were saved by your steps.
I had no choice but to soften at those words.
No matter how bad a person he is, he becomes weak when he hears words praising him.
Even if you are a very skeptical person, you may be skeptical at first, but once you feel that what you are saying is sincere, you will soften a little.
-You couldn’t have come forward. You could stay still and just watch. He didn’t have to show his strength and couldn’t save someone weaker than him.
I was a little stung by her words.
Most of what she said was for me.
I was just finding a way to survive, so it was embarrassing to be praised so much.
I wonder if she could read my thoughts and continued speaking with a soft smile.
-You may be sincere in saying that you are doing it for yourself. But it’s different if it’s something directly related to your life.
She said.
The things I did were saving Mahol and going to the North. What happened when I met Ahre, the main character of this world. From meeting the Empire’s secret forces to coming to the South.
He even mentioned small details that made me wonder how a being that only existed in the south knew about it.
‘Is this why it’s called the World Tree?’
A tree that supports the world.
There was almost nothing she didn’t know about what was going on in this world.
There was almost no place she couldn’t reach.
The feeling that my every move was being watched gave me goosebumps.
She didn’t care about my reaction.
-Among them, there were definitely things you didn’t have to do. I could just close my eyes for a moment and run away without any problems. But you didn’t.
Her eyes sparkle as she talks about the bloody battle with monsters in the north.
-You were able to run away on your own. It was enough. Since you were with the dragon hatchling, the strongest creature on earth, you might not be able to take everyone, but you could easily escape on your own.
Still, he said he didn’t back down. He said he was looking for danger.
She reached out and grabbed my hand.
I didn’t avoid that hand. I couldn’t avoid it.
-Just as you have done, please continue to do so. If you do that, this world can be saved because of you.
That’s a good thing.
It was strange that he didn’t like it when he said he trusted me.
However, after hearing that, I felt a little dumbfounded.
“Knowing that, I did something like that… How should I accept it?”
-Uh… about that.
At my question, she takes her hand away from me and steps back.
She lowered her sparkling eyes towards me and wiggled her fingers.
-That’s… I’m sorry. I knew that, but I wanted to be clearer. And I wanted to know how you would react.
“….”
Since I didn’t say anything, she rolled her eyes as if she was anxious.
Looking at her like this, her emotional expression was surprisingly clear.
Her every gesture and expression were so lively that it was hard to believe she was scolding her.
That may be why I was more possessed.
It’s so vivid that you believe it’s real.
“it’s okay. “I decided to skip that.”
-Oh, thank you.
“I know roughly what you mean. “I’m asking you to do what I’ve done so far.”
Move to survive like you have done up until now.
That’s what she was saying.
It was something I did to survive, but because of that action, the future that was set for me changed.
Please continue to do so in the future.
‘Well, in a way, it’s natural. Because in order for me to live, this world needs to be okay.’
Conversely, Ahar’s goal is to exterminate humanity on the continent.
I have done my job by simply preventing his purpose, which is directly opposite to mine.
“But what happens to me when it’s over? Are we going back to the world we came from?”
-Do you want to go back?
Do you want to go back… Well, I don’t know yet.
I know I can’t go back right now.
When I can go back, maybe when this world becomes peaceful and when Ahar dies.
It will be then.
But if that happens, do I really need to go back?
The reason I wanted to go back right away was to survive, but when this world becomes peaceful, that reason disappears.
Wouldn’t it be better to live here?
Should I give up now that I am peaceful and have the power and power to do anything?
I am different from the main characters of other creative works.
Unlike those who were trying to return to Earth somehow, my goal was safety.
Now… I’m not sure.
I would hate it if I had to go back to the incompetent me I was back then.
-The choice is yours. And since we still have a long way to go to make that choice, why not stick to the present for now?
I nodded.
That’s right. There’s no need to worry about something you can’t do yet.
I shook my head to shake off my thoughts.
“Then now give me a way to become stronger.”
Now that the question has been answered, it’s time to get something else.